Alright, well, I'm basically just wondering if anyone here has experienced anything similar to me. I get this thing where my body and mind go numb. It will start with me losing some sort of feeling throughout my body. I can still feel that I'm touching things, but it's hard for me to register what they are. But worse than that, the numbness spreads to my mind and it gets really hard for me to function. I get really frustrated, it's hard to find things, and if I can't find something, I feel like I'm the verge of a breakdown. Everything gets really hopeless and I don't feel like myself at all. I feel like I'm drugged or in this weird dream where I'm floating above my body or something. Anyway, this has been happening a lot more recently lately and it drives me mad. I cry when I feel it coming on. Usually, it lasts for about a week. Last time I had it, it lasted 2 weeks, and then I got my period (which I hadn't gotten for a few months), and I regained my feeling. It was seriously like a cloud was being lifted from my mind and I could actually think and concentrate and function again. Anyway, I guess my question is, has anyone here ever had this happen to them? Do you think it's some sort of hormonal imbalance? Can it be related to my period (which isn't regular by any means)? I DID go to the doctor a few months back because of it and had blood work and all that done and I was told I was fine. The doctor was a flake and told me to fucking meditate and shit like that. It was stupid... Any comments are welcome. Thanks
I've never had anything like that happen to me. I get pissed off when I can't find things sometimes, but nothing like what you said. My advice is to go and see a real doctor, not a stupid "flake" who told you to meditate (doesn't sound like a real doctor to me). Anyways, its not normal. I doubt its related to your period, but I don't know. It sounds really like a mental disorder to me. I don't know anything about hormonal imbalances.
I would recommend going to a doctor you are comfortable with and get a COMPLETE physical. It may not have anything at all to do with your period - but if there's a serious correlation then it could be attributed to a thyroid or hormonal imbalance that's causing both that and your irregularity. The only way to find out is to stick with it and see a doctor! Good luck, and feel better!
Thanks girls. I don't have any medical coverage at the moment, so it's not like I can go run off to a doctor right now. But thanks for the advice. At the moment I'm feeling decent, but I'm in constant fear of the numbness returning. It makes life miserable. Anyway...thanks for listening and for writing. Any other comments are welcome. (I'm really hoping there's someone out there with the same "symptoms" as me so I don't feel so alone and fucked up. On the other hand, I don't wish this feeling, or lack thereof, on anyone.)
Honey, I could well be wrong, but it really sounds like a kind of Dissasociation Disorder. Do you have an eating disorder, or do you hurt yourself? (Cutting burning hitting ect?) Do you "lose time" suddenly being hours after you last realized where you were, and have no idea what you were doing during those hours? Of do you have some really bad memories of child hood, or NO memories of it at all? (You don't have to answer on the forum, if you don't want to. Totally understandable if you don't want to.) Dissasociation Disorders cannot show up on medical tests, but a good psychologist or psychiatrist can help you. There are places where you can be evaluated on a sliding scale, you may want to call the WYCA or other similar organization. I could well be totally offbase, but it is something you may want to talk to a counselor about. Most regular MDs are pretty ignorant of this condition, and it is more common than previously thought. It is commonly due to extreme stress, post traumatic stress disorder and/or childhood abuse. Other types of extreme stress can cause it also. Good luck, I hope things get better. But you may need help to get better.
Thanks for answering, Maggie Sugar. I don't know much about dissasociation disorder, but there has been a lot going on in my life lately which has been causing a lot of stress, so what you said may not be totally off. I graduated college and have no direction which is causing a lot of stress. Plus, my parents have just separated (my father cheated after being married to my mom for 25 years) and living at home is not a very calming environment. I don't have an eating disorder, but the hurting myself part isn't far off... I wouldn't say I lost time, in that I don't lose hours where I don't know what I did during that time, but I have a really hard time concentrating and get really disoriented and reaaaaaaaally paranoid about everything. Driving is the worst. I probably shouldn't even really be driving when I feel like that. I get to places by luck because I can't tell where I am sometimes or I question myself so often (as in "did I just read that the speed limit is 50 or was that just in my mind?") that it gets exhausting. Anyway...I really do appreciate you taking the time to respond and for the advice. Thanks a lot for your kindness.
Maybe you should try doing things to help with your stress and reduce it so that you aren't so stressed and maybe it will help your problem. Its defidantly worth a shot, and getting rid of stress is easy. There is crying, laughing, exercise, and some other stuff I forgot that will help you reduce stress.
I used to have that happen to me when I was younger, but only for short amounts of time (20-30 minutes tops), and I haven't felt it in a while now. I'd just be someplace random and suddenly realize that I didn't feel like I was there, and everything felt numb. But how you said it, "like a weird dream", is exactly the best way to describe it! I don't know what advice to give you, but hope it makes you feel better knowing that I've had a similar experience. Is there a certain situation where it starts more often than other times, or just randomly? I used to get it when I was around lots of other people, but never by myself. Weird stuff. I hope it goes away! ~Nova
Thanks for your replies, guys. I guess the best way to deal with it would be to see a doctor. I've been trying to exercise, hoping that if I feel better physically, it'll help me mentally. So far, I've been able to fend off the numbness. I just hope it stays away. I don't think I can deal with it again...
Have you tried meditation? Although you said the doctor was a "flake", he might have been one of the ones who realise health isn't entirely body based (unless of course there are serious imbalances in the brain etc.) , mind and spirit need to be looked after too. When I was younger, I used to get the most incapacitating panic attacks, and was completely suicidal. Doctor's, shrinks, medication, therapy did nothing... it all just catered to my body and unconsciousness. A friend recommended meditation, having nothing to lose I tried. It was (and still is) a hard path and took a while before I could even do it properly, but I have never gone back to those states. Calming the mind and being completely aware of, and detatched from negative thought forms is something that can only help at the least. People don't realise that their thoughts create their entire reality, and meditation is the only tool I have found that gives full realisation and embodiment of that. Of course you should get medically checked out, but before you dismiss something completely, mabye you should look into it. Like me, you have nothing to loose by trying. Peace sister.
I'm with Maggie on this one... but I wouldn't immediately think DID.... it could be anything from PTSD, depression, just about any of the anxiety disorders, or several of the personality disorders. If the symptoms usually occur a week or two before your period does come, there's also a good chance that it could be premenstrual dysphoric disorder... if a good MD can't help you out, check with a psychologist...
I really do appreciate all of your responses. It could very well be anxiety or depression (sometimes it lasts for weeks or months). It's a bit scary to think it could be any number of mental disorders, but it's not like it hasn't entered my mind before. Thanks for caring enough to write and let me know your opinions. As for the meditation, I know there's a lot of merit in what was said and I know it can help, but sometimes having that drive to start something is difficult. I do know there's a connection between mind and body and I did agree with some things that doctor said. I guess that's the reason I haven't seen a psychiatrist. I'm afraid of being dependent on medication if I can "fix" myself naturally. Sometimes, though, everything gets too intense and I'm rendered incapable of any rational, positive thought. I think I spent 90% of this week just crying. I need to do something. Thanks for the thoughts, everyone. It's all very appreciated.
See a doctor ASAP insurance or not. The money you will pay later will be nothing compared to what you would pay by letting this slide and blow up to the point of a complete psychotic melt-down. When you are starting to hurt yourself, that's a really bad sign. Get yourself to a real, good doctor and tell them everything. Some natural things you can do to deal with stress - .Deep breathing .Sitting in a hot tub with a book .Eat chocolate .Take a little weekend road trip with your favorite music blasting in the car and your favorite junkfood. Go someplace you've always wanted to visit and never have. Road trips are so great for healing. .Try Yoga - it is AMAZING for dealing with stress and calming your mind and body Mama, most importantly, LOVE YOURSELF. You are worth it, you are beautiful and life is good. Focus on all the blessings in your life and all the beauty this world has to hold.
