Teenage drama,or I'm in seriouse sh** ?

Hi!
I'm 17 and straight (sort of..). I know maybe this isn't the place to tell it,but these feelings and thoughts are driving me crazy lately [and,no -pills doesn't realy help anymore]...
To tell the truth-I'm a player type and I never been stable in relationships with guys. But the wiedest thing - when guys tell me,that they realy like,or even love me,it scares a hell out of me and I usually end up saying : 'oh,thanx. how about being JUST friends?!' I know I hurt people + I'm a lil bit selfish bi**h,but I can't help it!
So...ok! Here goes the wierdest thing ever,that happened to me. There's my friend (girl).. we know each other well,like 1 year already (we're in same school). We were great friends +other gals and guys - we had a great time! Ok,closer to the point - she told me that she loves me (I was,like-are you drunk or something,lol) ,heh I know it's a bull *** -she loves everyone! I don't realy understand her sometimes too! Sometimes she makes me angry,sometimes happy,confuses me ,but f**k it - I do like her! I'm freakin' attracted to the girl!! NO way!!!
And now after the New Year's party ( we haven't celebrated it together) - she has totaly changed. We don't even talk anymore..sometimes she makes me feel,like she's mad at me for some UNKNOWN reason! I ignore her too,but it feels so wrong for me..it just hurts,ok. And I will never ever show my real feelings for her,though I never did.And it's good! I think. I know..

Oh,cr*p! Have any of you had similar situation here?! Gee, do I sound,like a L-gal? 'Cause I'm straight ,like an arrow...just broken... I have nothing against gays and all,but I'm confused..
What should I do?

thanks in advance
sorry,I couldn't make this shorter

 

Let's assume she truly loved you in a lesbian way. She might be upset that you don't love her back or she might think that you are laughing at her, spreading it around, etc. It's possible that she's hurt or embarrassed or both.

On the other hand, maybe she was just very affectionate in a not-so-lesbian way. Maybe she was drunk, and maybe she wasn't. She might think you took what she said the wrong way. Again, it's an awkward situation. I'm not surprised if she is avoiding you if that's the case.

The fact that you are attracted to her really isn't the issue here. What you might try is telling her that you have noticed that she has been very different around you, and that you want to talk about it and apologize if you did anything to hurt her.

 

Ok,I'm still a lil bit confused ,this just never happened to me before.I am sure it wasn't in a lesbian way. And I'm not realy sure about my feelings. You know..my brains tells me one thing and my emotions another..
Thanks for the reply!

 

OK, I sort of made up my mind..Now I know her for a little bit better,she's a same player type as me ,ha ha. I don't like her anymore..because I don't understand her at all, one minute she talks to me smiling,another - she looks at me,like she's ready to beat me up ,or something! **** it! Now I'm ready to forget her,hope we never hang out together again.
Peace!