I try to be very responsible in my drug use. I use in my free time, under safe conditions, with adequate knowledge before I begin. My one issue with being a responsible drug user is this: keeping it from affecting relationships with my friends and family. For the most part, I have an excellent relationship with my family and my friends. But it may actually be too good, because I am the person who gets phone calls at two in the morning to come pull people out of dangerous situations and such. I don't want to go into much detail, but the situations are varied, very serious and rarely need to be overdramatized. My problem is that I try to keep my drug use seperate from such critical moments, but often I'll be called and I'll be stoned or drunk or tripping. But the role has fallen to me to help my friends because everyone else has abandoned them. I have no choice, and so I may go into situations with altered judgement, which has caused negative, if none too serious (thankfully), consequences in the past. How can I reconcile my drug use with the demands my friends place on me and still maintain an air of responsiblity?
That's not really something you can control man. It's on them to keep themselves out of such situations. They choose to call on you and, even if you're stoned or drunk, you're still better than nothing. You are not responsible for their mistakes so you shouldn't feel bad about not being of sound mind when they call on you for help, as long as you still do what you can to help them.
self honesty along with substance knowledge holds the line between drug use and drug abuse. Use of substances is meant for a ceremonial time in a way one in which you are engaged in activities pertaining to the celebration of that substance, whether it be checking out a movie stoned, wandering into the wilderness on acid, or laughing at walls on mushies. that is so much easier said than done though, even holding that ideal on the top of my head I still have fallen into feinding hurting states with rapid decent. If your a balance of better judgement amung your freinds though Id say it is certainly a very positive thing to be involved in.
I guess it's all a matter of priorities. What is more important to you - drug use or your family and friends? Other people's actions are out of your control but your drug use is in your control. I'm not necessarily saying you have to sacrifice one or the other but perhaps it is the solution. Would you be willing to make a sacrifice like the ones I'm suggesting? I guess I may be looking at your situation a bit too "matter of fact". There is probably a way of finding a balance but with it comes risk. Life is full of risks so you can chose to take this road, the unknown road, or take the difficult road of sacrifice. There is no easy road. Life is not easy.
