Im fuckin lossed...I need help! PLEASE READ!

Ever since this very day i write this i have been encountering issues with life. I have been seeing a psychiatrist since i was 3 till i was 10 because i was alway depressed. I even had problems befor birth tsss..not to mention after. When i was 4 my parents got divorced it all was well living in a nice industrialized area where i could meet people and have fun as a child, untill it was then my dad met this woman who did nothing but mind fuck me since i was 6. When my dad maried her we moved to the sticks. She had my dad whipped so anything she said went and its been holding my life back dramaticly. She would treat me like shit, scold me for sleeping on the coutch cause my room doesnt get heat, she would scoled me for using the upstairs bathroom because the toiliot downstairs didnt flush, she would scold me for getting somthing to eat, and my dad would always have her back. But i said fuck that by putting my mind aside and thought "well i cant do much, might as well used my time on the computer" it got beat reading about linux and windows from the day i wake up till the day i sleep for about a year then i met this girl who changed my whole life...during the time i relaized true love is the best feeling ever and its how i can get my true happieness out. She was an awsome girl we did everything together other then how she treated me
she somtime woulld be so mad at me for real stupid stuff like hanging out with my friends when she told me she coulnt chill. then it got bad she told me she cheated on my with this kid Bill...ends up to be the kid i lived next door to for 10 years when my dad was single living in the other house...now life has completley reversed and kicked me in my ass...these were some of the lowest times in my life. i could sware the only thing that kept me alive was god. Now i started to take extra percausions about relationships untill i met this one girl who was a con artist in leading me on... My brother now has lukemia as you read this...im giving up...im contimplating what i should do with my life. I been thinkin of saying fuck this bullshit and signing carere in the navy doing active duty or the army or something. I wanted to join the airforce but since i got cought with drug pariphinalia and got charged with a mistamener i am told by a navy reqruiter i wont get enlisted into the airforce. But thats not what i wana do..its not what will make me happy. I have only found one thing that makes me happy. Love. i have spent 12 years in school learning NOTHING. i shoulda stayed home and learned python (a C++ based high level language)when i was 10. im almost 20 years now...And this upsets me somtimes to the point where i honestly come closer and closer to suicide each time. I dont got shit to live for. Im almost 20...I get 1 life and its been fucked since even befor i popped out. What should i do?

 

dude! think seriously bout the Forces please! active duty may cause you to experience shit goin down that cause ANYBODY REAL MENTAL DAMAGE and if you are worried about your state right now, this could be a bad move. clearly get other opinions too tho. If love is what you want, maybe helping to kill people in the army could be swapped for working in social services. There are many kids out there who could really do with sharing their life with people who have gone through major shit too dude. u never know, they cud help u work urslef out too. jus a thought.

 

I really don't know what to say man. Just hold on though dude, try to think positive, i know my life has been really fucked up as well, and sometimes i do wonder when ever any good will be around my corner. Good luck man and try to be positive.

 

awwww.......sad....
u shud travl.....sry i dunno wat else it always makes me feel bettr.......
good luc 2 ya......

 

You need to let go of the past, no matter how difficult and painful it may be. Wallowing in your past is not going to help your future. You are an adult now and can have the control over what kind of path you want to follow in life, you have the ability to change things, to make things better for yourself.

It's horrible what has happened to you. Believe me, I came from a broken home and went through a lot of abuse that has shaped me into the person I am today as well. But I got weary of blaming my problems on the mistakes that my family made. Where was it getting me really? It was a crutch to lean on, and I had had enough of being emotionally crippled. It took a lot of strength and determination, but I put my past behind me, and looked towards the future with a renewed vigor. I forgave my family, afterall, they are only human and products from how they themselves were raised. I couldn't very well stay angry, knowing that they really couldn't help who they were. Accepting them for who they were was part of my healing process.

Letting go of that changed me, it made me free, finally able to stop blaming and start living. There's no sense reliving your past, you simply must make the best of your future, be the change that you want to be. Learn from mistakes, make a better life for yourself...

{{{hugs and healing}}}

 

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and wisdom to know the difference.



Hope this helps you bro !!


Peace and love

 

Don't join the Airforce unless your a protestant christian. I'd recommend the Navy over the Army (but I don't really know much, and I recommend you do a ton of research on both of them before you make a decision), and I recommened them both over suicide. I agree with an earlier poster that you might not want to join if your having problems with things other than depression (like mental health dysorders). Joining one of the services could put you in a situation that could give you or worsen any mental dysorders.

If you have nothing to lose all that meens is that you have everything to gain.

Sorry, I can't think of many helpful things to say. Figure out what will make you happy (and please don't be brainwashed into thinking its material).

 

I don't know at times why I myself exist, yet to say in all, I have to believe someday things will change for the better, only I dont know yet what that is and I hear what you say about being hurt bad by those you love and care about in growing up so I imagine trust is something not easy to come by, I know it is not for me. I am on psych disability of schizophrenia and physical disability. If you can have some sort of pet animal if you like cats or dogs, I have a cat and sometimes she is the only one I have to keep me company for days at a time and sometimes knowing she needs me to feed and water and care for helps me to carry on, and I know I can trust her cause she was put at the animal shelter and I adopted her about a year ago last october and even though I dont want to live sometimes I do so she needs me to stay alive and that helps me to stay here to be there for her. I know it sounds stupid, but sometimes a pet can bring hope when there seems none. It is that way for me. You are a survivor please hang on till better days come your way. Peace to you- rx head. dont give up.

 

Two words: Peace Corps

 

sorry to read that girl .try meditation ........works wonders ps cooloner why the dots ? learn to type in english man

 

Kimberly. You're hot. What a beautiful lady. With women like you walking around I would never think of joining the army.

 

I haven't read anyone else's posts, cause it's late and I wanna go to bed, but I'm gonna guess they're trying to dissuede (sp?) you from joining the army and whatnot. I reckon you should just join if you're than unhappy, either that or move somewhere new and try to start from square one, take your chances and all that. But yeah, if you join the army you might get to kill Arabs, and if that's not SUPER FUN I just don't know what is!

 

I know people who have killed people and have had people killed and I promise you that killing someone will never make you happier. You can't fight fire with fire. If you want wisdom forget about looking for it online, pick up a copy of the bible and read it. Learn about God by yourself. Just read the book. It will help you understand life better. Believe me. Good luck.

 

hey you just need a change... seriously, go on a vacation for a bit. get out of your town even for like a week. it helps.

 

Pleaeaeaeaessssseee. That's not good advice at all.
OK god is good and Jesus was a hippy and stuff. But it's a book full of death, killing, scary stuff, torture and war.

He should make some friends and stuff. Or should get a nice girlfriend. He should seek a goal in life. Do something new. Change of scenery.
And if that not works he should seek a shrink.

 

"But yeah, if you join the army you might get to kill Arabs, and if that's not SUPER FUN I just don't know what is!"

Okay, thats just fucked up. Obviously, you "just don't know what is!" Arabs are wonderful, joyful people, with a beautiful culture and rich religion, and are merely viewed in a bad light recently. Killing people is never fun. Ever.

"If you want wisdom forget about looking for it online, pick up a copy of the bible and read it. Learn about God by yourself. Just read the book. It will help you understand life better. Believe me. Good luck."

The bible is bullshit. If there ever was a god, he's dead now, and if he wasn't, I'd kill him my self. The killing, warring, slaughters and massacres that have been carried out in the name of god is sickening. The idea of a god has brought nothing but evil to this world.

And to the original poster:

Just step back, look at where you are in life at this point, and see where you can go from here. Drastically change your lifestyle, perhaps. Maybe look for an opportunity to experience some communal living, or maybe hike the long trail. Do whatever you ever wanted to--Live your life every day as if it was your last, and love everyone around you. I wish you the best of luck, peace and happiness, and I hope that my advice is helpful.

 

But it's a book full of death, killing, scary stuff, torture and war.

It's a book about life because God is the God of life, so it has a bunch of stuff that has happened in peoples lives. The world is full of killing, death, scary stuff, torture and war.
God is perfectly just. Not only is he just, he is merciful. Think of all the stuff he lets us get away with. If I were to say that I even come close to really understanding God or why things are the way they are I would be a liar, but I am confident that God is just.

 

Pygot i think the answer for you is a: travel or b: go to school. If you have an interesting in programming you should pursue it. Get to see some other countries and ways of life...get a little perspective on things.

Also you should repost.

We could never actually measure the amount of carnage during that timeframe. The Hebrew laws of sacrifice creates this picture of huge lines of folks with animals waiting for the priest to kill as atonement for sin. Christianity is a religion rooted in sacrifice and I think Christians are too quick to dismiss that. You say you believe God is just soley because your faith depends on you saying that. And how can God be 'just' as humans define the word; if you are judging him based on our definition then he definitely is not just.

 

Your right, I can't tell you what it means when I say that God is just, but I know that he is. He made us in his image and in his likeness so I can understand justice in my own way. From my experience, God is just. You might not understand how each thing that happens in your life comes from God but it still does. God created the world and everything in it and he is a God of mercy, justice, and Life. Dont join the military. Read the bible. Go to school. I hope you do well in life.

 

not everyone believes what you do, so stop bible-thumping, please.