Do thou...

...smoketh this bowl?
I am, then, forever, to smoketh, forever, a lone growler?
Alone and enraged, I smoketh alone.
I bring the SpiritS straizzzzt h0me[1] from space[0].

 

good for you

 

Why awaken a lone wolves cry from a year ago?

 

if you're still hearing the cry, then it's not dead/gone/over/finished

 

I smoke alone because the spirit in the bowl shows me the lies I've been telling myself.

and why
and what they cost me

 

Well said.
We smoke to awaken ourselves
and face our re-poop