Every moment of you is a weight in me now The more you turn your back on me, the more I fall Now, I’ve reached the point of crawling in the darkness Growing sicker with every attempt to shut you out Your voice grows tired with age And here I am thinking my evil thoughts Thinking the one you love did all this to you All because she is not me and I would care more about you Your concept of time is a far stretch to the edges of the universe And I am some lowly exploding star in the center of my world Because nothing is instant, I should have known that No one ever taught me and I will never learn I am reality’s enemy while you are its gateway to fantasy Have they barred me from your gates? Have they even set you as my destiny? I’m beginning to think the world wants this They all want to see me crushed under the weight of you Lying on a couch, spilling your torment out to no one who understands Sitting in a cold room somewhere with a thorazine drip Losing myself in constant sleep Disconnecting from anything but life For, the end of me is not the only end of you Now, I sit, afraid to lose my connections To the love of my family and the importance of my tasks And I’m blaming you for driving me under all this weight An evil seed that in four years’ time grew into a monster Tamed only by your touch And the warm breath of your living song in my ear So, please come to me as soon as you can Don’t let me fall any further Don’t leave my life and well-being cancelled and delayed In another one of your burdened moments
