Blood Crooked, yellowed Baby teeth, A smile untamed. Generous flesh Masking This tiny frame. Blue-gray eyes, Unfocused. I am plain. The blood, the blood, The blood, It's all to blame. If I purge it, Empty, Hollow my veins I would be clean And small And without shame. Despite My Intelligence I'm sorry I'm not pretty enough for you. Despite my intelligence I can't understand How I manage to love someone Who can make me feel so ugly, So worthless and unwanted. I'll have you know that I'm equally as gorgeous As Molly Parker or my roommate. I refuse to be made ugly and unwanted. (But I have little resolve.) I am beauty. I'm sorry I'm not pretty enough for you. I asked you to tell me how pretty I am. (Despite my intelligence I need to hear it.) I was nearly crying. I was crying out loudly to you. You looked me so gently in the eye, And held my cheeks as you kissed my forehead. You were thinking it, I know. You looked so sad for the things you can't say. I am beauty. I am beauty. I am beauty. (I have to remind myself.) I'm sorry I'm not pretty enough for you. That part of me you believe is lazy Simply ran out of paint and can't afford more. That waste of a girl who can't work Pushes on through years of insanities and failures. That silly little thing that loves you (Despite her intelligence and all the bad things you can be), The woman who sees clearly the beauty you hide, Is equally beautiful as you. I am beauty. (Still, I'm sorry I'm not pretty enough for you.)
Despite My Intelligence - wowzers....amazing. I respect and I'm in awe. It's perfect and so well worded.
your words do more than remind me of things i felt before, they almost do what a new expeirience would.
you still have that uncanny ability to convey such raw power from a intensely personal point of view... it's an intangible thing I can't put my finger on, but it's there! Oh, and you're beautiful, and you write beautifully
I think there is alot of humility in beauty, for me humilty makes up this round world. I liked your poetry it was... everything I suppose.
