The last time I saw my alcoholic dad

Discussion in 'Random Thoughts' started by interval_illusion, Dec 27, 2005.

  1. interval_illusion

    interval_illusion Deceased

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    and kinda why i need to not drink

    god bless his soul

    he's so good

    i wont go into history but i never really had him in my life

    twoish years ago he came here to talk to me
    he brought a six pack and a bowl
    kinda weird
    we had never smoked together but we were always adults after i turned 18 so not TOOOO weird
    we had a couple beers, took a couple hits and he started crying
    he told me he has lung cancer
    or almost
    i dont even know.... i dont talk to him much
    he told me he cant stop drinking and smoking and i saw him in me

    i sat there and held him and told him he CANT DO IT and id help and im his friend and his daughter. i firmly soothed him for hours.

    he was really upset.

    then he disapearred again.

    i went to my grammas (his moms) this christmas and i guess he's not doing well and im gonna call him tomorrow. ive felt like his mom like forever and it hurts me. i want my dada to live. he has sooo much to offer like you dont know. his stories. his band. his back flips of the diving board. he's so rad.

    but he's hurting. he was never here and once agan
    im the "child" and he's not here for me but i gotta be for him.
    im not complaining
    i just wish i could help him and i doubt i can but ill try
    i just dont wanna be like him
     
  2. olhippie54

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    All you can do is be there for him, Trish.
     
  3. interval_illusion

    interval_illusion Deceased

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    but i wanna help him and i feel that when i see him

    he claims i helped so much

    then he goes back

    he's my daddy
    yah know?

    i dont wanna lost him.
    he's younger then you marc!
     
  4. olhippie54

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    Maybe the best way to help him is by example, Trish. And to be close to him as a comfort.
     
  5. hippiehillbilly

    hippiehillbilly the old asshole

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    HELLO FOR THE 1500TH TIME!!

    HELP YOURSELF FIRST!!!!!:p
     
  6. interval_illusion

    interval_illusion Deceased

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    im trying! kay?
     
  7. olhippie54

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    In a rare occasion I have to agree with HHB. Fix yourself first. You can't give away something you don't have.
     
  8. interval_illusion

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    he's my DAD THOUGH. how would you feel?
    im 25? he's 50!

    i shouldnt have to take care of him but i do
     
  9. interval_illusion

    interval_illusion Deceased

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    though i also take after him and he knows it.... [​IMG] =/
     
  10. Rebel_1

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    Im sorry to hear about your father Trish, I hope he gets well. I think olhippie54 has it right, he gave some good advice there. I hope everything works out for the best.
     
  11. olhippie54

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    Nobody ever said dealing with addictions was easy.
     
  12. interval_illusion

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    thank you chris
    *hugs*
     
  13. Rebel_1

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    I give you *hugs* to Trish.
     
  14. kayahaze

    kayahaze Member

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    thats sad. i havent seen my dad in two years since his girlfriend kicked me out.
     
  15. interval_illusion

    interval_illusion Deceased

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    yeah i didnt see him for a few before then and then he came to me like that

    i adut but i am still young and it hurts.

    i cried after he left.
     
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