it's amazing to me how much people change w/in a year and a half. the same people i went to church with and grew up with for 5 years are all.....well they have all fallen off the path of righteousness much like me. It's bizarre to me I'm back in MO til' the 3rd. All my old buddies are all different. but i cant say much and im not complaining. i dont know why but it's just intersting to me how often people change....especially with circumstance. i didnt really expect them to stay the same, but when you havent seen your old friends for a long amount of time, i guess part of you just isnt sure what to expect when you finally do see them. in a way it's comforting b/c then they wont be there judging your every move. anyway yah
I know what you mean.. Going back to where I'm from after having been away was so strange.. Everything was so completely different.. But also it's sort of strange how some people were exactly the same, like as if no time had passed.. I dunno, the whole thing is just strange.
haha derek...thanks i dont feel bad just pondering thoughts is all patrick yah it is strange. b/c this one girl i know....been gone for a year and a half and she didnt change one bit...i think i found that to be annoying b/c she is exactly the same now as she was when i first met her 6 years ago. i think i like unpredictability the best. makes life more interesting i suppose eh?
If people always stayed the same, they wouldn't really learn anything different, you know, so... I don't really care. Just let time take its toll, sometimes. Anywho... I am home... and I have champagne & reefer (literally now). Yay.
i know what you mean. it seems like peoples standards and happiness decrease more and more as they get older. i personally have been realizing this a lot lately...innocence definatley fades in this world and no life is no longer full of ease and oblivion... but problems and negativity take their place and reign supreme, even in your own head a lot of times. but think about it, people are no longer flexible or limber or healthy as they get older...they stressed, tired, tensed and knotted up. part of me finds comfort in the fact that people are unhappy cuz then i don't feel as bad about my unhappiness.. but part of me realizes thats fucked up too, and i should have higher expectations for myself regardless of the condition of this fucked up world...
