I'm never going to achieve the dream of being who I want to be, a happy person. I'm depressed, I have no confidence, I'm not happy, I can't push myself to approach woman, I'm not funny, I'm NEVER happy, I never feel good, nothing ever gives me a rush, I lack motivation, I have pretty good looks, but that won't help me achieve my dream of being the guy every girl in the school wants to go out with. That's who I want to be, the guy who's tough and cocky, but still knows how to make almost every girl interested, without being too aggressive. I want to be that guys who's confident about himself, gets the ladies, has drives, has motivations, doesn't care what people who don't know shit about him think, is happy with himself, is busy and basically, enjoys life. Currently, my life out of school is basically the same boring crap every day. Heres my typical day. Get up about 6:30, take a shower, and then get ready for school which takes maybe 5 minutes. Then I sit on the computer til I drive to school. At school I sit there just thinking about stuff. Not talking to anyone cause everyone ignores me when I speak. I konw they can hear me but because they don't really know me, they don't listen. Yet I see other guys who are always the center of attention. As you can see, I have a pretty boring life when I'm not in school. I want to change that, I want to become active, I want to meet new people, I'm tired of being bored, lonely and depressed, to the point that the only way I can get a rise, is masturbating. Ive tried alcohol, drugs, herbs, none of that works anymore. Ive thought about suicide several times. I want to feel that I have a purpose in life, I want to feel that I have a reason for living, I don't want to feel like I'm just a pointless waste of air, like I do.
well the biggest problem is that you want to be someone else. try just being yourself. its gonna get you a lot closer to happines.
Ive tried being myself, and Im just a nerdy kid who sits on the computer all day cause I dunno where the cool parties are, or where theres anything else to do.
Maby you should play an instruments. Girls like musicians and stuff. Or you could be funny by cracking jokes all the time or whatever. Also put out some wurds like uber, phat, mofo, tubular, and nome sayin'. Also be gramaterically incorect all the time and stuff, cuz that shows you don't like the extablishment and their gramaterical rules.
Life is what you make it. If you don't like the person you are now, then change. It's as simple as that. The key thing is not to try to force too much on yourself, take baby steps. Join a club or some other group to give you a social outlet other than school. Meet new people by making an effort to talk to them. Get out of your comfort zone, and put yourself out there. I used to have the same problems with my social life, but I slowly dragged myself out of that rut. As for finding motivation and purpose, keep looking. I still haven't found any one thing that is a driving force in my life, but the search itself can be just as fufilling. Change is only as hard as you make it out to be. If you want to be a confident guy with a lot of things going for him, what's stopping you?
You have to want to change. You can wish for things, but you have to be the one to put your plan into action. Do things that make you feel good about yourself, get involved in other activities outside of school. Your confidence will increase when you have things in your life that give you satisfaction and positive results. Not everyone can be "that guy" or "that girl" who gets all of the dates, all of the attention, and an endless invitation to all of the "cool" parties...the most refreshing person is the one who dares to be who they really are inside. {{{Hugs}}}
hahahah omg sorry, that was really funny... For the original post though, if you harp and dwell on things that make you depressed and feel sorry for yourself, you will go no where instead of sitting sulking all the time...ya know what I mean... You're only 17 and high school is really just a giant mall imo so its not like you're missing out on anything just cause people dont talk to you... Just be yourself(yeah, you probably heard that a billion times) I sometimes feel the need to get down and out about my life, but what good would it do, nothing.. It wont help and it will be a waste of time.. Cheer up cause no matter what, things could always be worse... Dont waste the time getting down about things cause that definitely wont fix anything...
Not to sound trite, but I'm gonna pull out the age card You're 17, thats a tough time, I went through a few rough waves back then as well. Theres life outside of high school and plenty of time to find your happiness. And dont be comparing yourself to those who are seemingly pleased and the centre of attention. They've got their problems and, if not, they will in due timing.
