confession of the year i've never truly loved anyone. Has anyone else had this moment, where you finally love someone/something, and you realize...and truly seriously know, you never knew love before? It's like if all my life people told me and i believed that the house across the street was Mexico, then i go to mexico a couple years later only to find out what mexico is really like. It's like WHAT??? HOLY SHIT. It's NOTHING like i expected. NOTHING LIKE IT. I never could fully grasp the difference between lust and love or forced love, natural (family) love and real LOVE. until this day. (and by day i mean last few months) love is thrown around too carelessly, they (whoever they are...obviously some dictionary company or something) need to come up with a word that surpasses love so we have something to use when we grow up and discover the real love.
Aha....feal right were your coming from.....but then again, how can we find love when people are changing so rapidly (especially our age were people are constantly trying to figure out who they are), people do change...thats what I figured out......I figured out that I did love someone, but that someone changed over the 2 years that we dated for...and I couldnt stand the changes-or mabye I changed and it wasnt even her at all? Mabye our interests had fallen apart....At the age we are at I dont know if I can be certain the person I know today, could be a completely different person tommorow..it happens with friends, family, and people you love, the change could be for the better or for the worse. I feel that if it is truely meant to be, mabye me and her will someday cross paths, but i know the person I am meant to be with is out there and i cant wait to meet her! Oh and by the way i always keep my top button, unbuttoned and i dont know why, probably because i get to lazy after buttoning the other three buttons
Welcome to the way of the world! No one can find what they don't know or haven't been shown. Parents show parental love, carers show carers love, but when you're looking for "real love" ~ who ever showed it to you so how will you recognise it? The only way to find real love is to find what it's not first, and that's what happens to everyone. It's like learning to ride a bike ~ no one can teach balance, but you sure find out all about it when you fall off. And then by that happening ~ viola! ~ you learn to balance and ride the bike. So you never having found real love means that you're on your way to finding it. Hurts sometimes, though. For me it was like being born blind, and I had to find the green crayon in the crayon box ~ how the hell would I know what green was when I was blind to it?! That's what finding love is like for everyone. So have a think about that, and while you're in the thinking process, consider this ~ You can only ever feel your own love. You will never feel someone else's love for you, though you may hear of it, interact with it, or see it. But you will only ever feel your own love. Love is not a destination or an outcome, it is a way of being. Love acts by itself of itself for itself. And it is contained within each and every one of us. Love is all you need..............
Hmm.. kinda. What I feel now is just so strong that it kinda feels wrong (well not wrong but.. ehh, I can't explain it) to call it love coz love is not a big enough word to actually describe or explain it.
Oh well i think i confused myself with what you were meaning.......after all i am a guy im not suppose to know this stuff....eh i just blame it on the marijuana.....and burbon.
