In letters all too wrinkled And flawlessly memorized I try to find you But you are not within the battered pages. I used to un-wind you! And it has become unbearably clear that those words were not you And were never meant For me. Unbearably clear that you’ve been blessed (or cursed) with a heart too weak too fickle too endure even love all too common. So common, it is unworthy Of even a poem But large enough That I devote All thought To letters unanswered. And why should I think Fleeting moments of comfort Would be enough to bind you (as it bound me to you so!) Subtleties which should have indicated The manhood in your heart (your sudden disinterest) only intrigued my heart all too willing to laugh in the face of the inevitable (broken hearts!) and in turn laughing hearts would be silenced by the sad inevitable. I say (in desperate means of unbinding) embrace me once more with a forced kiss (as Judas allowed Jesus before betrayal) so maybe then, a kiss (your kiss) will not leave me blushing but instead, maybe then, I will understand. (Voice two..) I find it amusing Your naïve loyalty To those who don’t want you (who never have!) and why should you think that I, (who’s all too content to fly) would stop for the effortlessness of your affection? (there is no chase in your willingness). Does it really matter If my affections match my thoughts? It has become laughingly clear That I need nothing But a pawn on a board And you as my pawn To move your heart at my will, And self entertain For months. I left not only you But also the part of me That ever felt compelled to speak the words, “I love you” and really mean it. I left that part so that when I leave And leave that part of me with you It is easier to laugh At your hopeful reconcile And feel no Regret.
We long for part of what was offered, for we know it will return, and reject that which had to leave, to open space for that which will arrive. Each relationship prepares us for the one... and you will know as the voices settle and the questions evaporate, that you have at last found yourself. When one needs no other, then and only then is it possible, to have faith and grow side by side without the other leaving to find themselves...
Thank you, that was beautiful. Sylvan I'm very appreciative that you commented and added such wonderful poetry, I've always enjoyed reading your poetry, you are an amazing poet.
What very nice things to say, I want to go hide now... but I'm certainly smiling. wow, your sincerity is quite powerful... * goes to finish some pasta for a singing daughter *
Incredible...especially the quote you have on the bottom, I say stuff like that ALL the time. Isn't it amazing the differences bewtween two lovers? How we grow, and I pull to the north and he pulled to the west, and we sometimes snap from the pressure. I try to be grateful for every emotion that drives me to write. Now that's a love
I feel the same way..it's such a hard thing to go through but in the end it evolves into such a positive, empowering force
"Those who give you a serpent when you ask for a fish, may have nothing but serpents to give. It is then generosity on their part." -Kahlil Gibran, Sand & Foam Yet we should amend: that when one needs fish, it does no good to recieve serpents. And likewise, if one needs serpents, it does no good to recieve fish. A simple "No, thank you" will suffice, and then... the world moves on.
