I have never truly been depressed in my life before this point. I am usually content with the way things are, crappy as they may be, but not anymore. A little over a week ago, a couple of friends and I went to visit a friend in another state. The friend from out of state took us to an amusement park, bringing along an ex girlfriend and one of HER friends. When waiting in line for a ride, the ex hugged me and told me to make my friend take us to the ice cream place. This happened a few times. I also held hands with her on a roller coaster, and sat next to (and close to) her friend on another ride. On the way home, we had to squeeze me, one of my friends, and both girls in the back seat. I got to sit next to one of the girls, and I enjoyed it. She even put her head on my shoulder at one point. This probably sounds really lame to those of you who have been far beyond this point with somebody of the opposite sex, but I've never been close. Now I'm back home, where the chances of recieving such female attention are close to nothing. I haven't had a girlfriend in my life, and this experience makes me want one more than anything. I don't know if women's tastes in guys is differnet here or something, but I am a loser who no girl is interested in as far as I can see. theres also not a thing to do in this shithole. The boredom and knowing I can't leave are really getting me down, but my desire for and lack of a girl is just awful. Ahg, I should have "missed" the plane home.
man i know exactly what you mean. i felt EXACTLY the same way for like two years. the only way i broke out of that was sheer luck, that one of my guy friends turned out to like me as something more. while i felt that way though, it got shittier and shittier. i started thinking "hell i've nothing to look forward to besides getting out of this town to find a guy somewhere else," and then in the meantime, in the sadness of it, i started hurting myself. emotionally, for sure, and that led to 'substance abuse' to put it kindly. trust me, that part's not worth it. the thing is, you could be the most attractive person in the world, but in a small town things seem to work... differently. I wish i could tell you some way to make it better right now, but i don't know how to fix it... my only plan when i wnet through that was to get outta town, A.S.A.P. i do wish you luck though, and please know, as cheesy as it sounds, that honestly there IS someone out there you'll meet in time. and i, for one, am honestly greatful to have gone through your situation. it made me really figure out how to appreciate friends and relationships before i jumped into something romantic.
Sounds like getting out of your home town might help a bit... Are you planning to go to college? Because if you are, going to one out of state and starting anew would almost certainly turn things around for you... In addition, living on Campus somewhere will definitely introduce you to a large number of new people, men and women alike, and will give you tons of opportunities to meet some ladies. Sometimes we tend to stagnate if we don't get out and see the world... I think that a change of scenery can work wonders for anyone! The nice thing about college, too, is that it's much easier to just go anywhere and start college than it is to just up and leave your town and go somewhere else and NOT start college.... because in college everyone is in the same boat as you, starting new somewhere new, and it's incredibly easy to meet people in those circumstances. It can be harder to just up and leave and start somewhere else without that type of connection to others in the new location. Another option is always online dating (Match.com, etc), I've known people that has worked for. Anyway, you sound like an all right dude to me... keep perservering and you're bound to meet someone! Good luck with things!
I agree with the two posts above.. As someone who lives in Indy, I know places here suck, depending on what part you live in. You just have to venture out and meet people. Try not to be shy, I know thats hard to do, but it is well worth it...
I'll probably go to college in state. My counsellor wants me to go to purdue. Oh well, from what I hear those who were losers in highschool don't have the same women troubles once in college. I guess I'll just have to wade through this shitpile one more year, then I'll be done with highschool.
