craaaazyyyy

im having such a hard time trying to find out who i am. all these thoughts are running though my head, i dont even know how to sort them. they make me feel crazy. i dont want anyone to hold me back from the things i wanna do, and the things i wanna try. im paranoid, im worried, im scared, im anxious, im happy, im nervous, im hesitant, im freewilled, im opinionated, im crazy.
my mind wont STOP!!!!!
i sit on the toilet... 'im paranoid, im worried, im scared, im anxious, im happy, im nervous, im hesitant, im freewilled, im opinionated, im crazy'
i lay in bed...'im paranoid, im worried, im scared, im anxious, im happy, im nervous, im hesitant, im freewilled, im opinionated, im crazy'
i walk to school....'im paranoid, im worried, im scared, im anxious, im happy, im nervous, im hesitant, im freewilled, im opinionated, im crazy'
IT DOESNT STOP. why doesnt it stop? i just want it to stop. I cant stop thinking about this life....i cant stop thinking. why why why!! dont let me be crazy.

 

ive been that way forever ....its not so bad ....its realy an encouraging sign that you feel that way ...never a dull moment like that .....just breath into it

 

Ah Lucy if we all acted spontaneiously then WOW!!! People have this idea (Most people) that somehow we remain something that can be categorised, described as, "Oh she's patient, she's calm, she's sensible." Truth of the matter is that we can be anything anytime we want to be. We change. We change sometimes on an hourly basis, sometimes yearly. But we do change. You just be who you wanna be because only then will you be sure of one thing. You're being you.


Ben x

 

lucyinthesky
im having such a hard time trying to find out who i am. all these thoughts are running though my head, i dont even know how to sort them. they make me feel crazy. i dont want anyone to hold me back from the things i wanna do, and the things i wanna try. im paranoid, im worried, im scared, im anxious, im happy, im nervous, im hesitant, im freewilled, im opinionated, im crazy.
my mind wont STOP!!!!! i sit on the toilet...

That's horrible... seriously... when your mind gets that fucked up why even worry about it... actually that sounds pretty normal to me... and you'll never know who you are... nobody ever does..... even if you live to be 97.... so you may as well give up big time and stop trying to find yourself and order your thoughts...

And believe it or not... but once you let go and think to yourself... who cares who I am... and stuff all those thoughts and go out and live and play and just be... you will find that magically many of your worries have gone... But either way... you still not gunna find out who you are... that's the real big bummer about life....

So next time you sit on the toilet... let go... let it all flow out and you'll walk out of there a new person with a new mind... coz all the shit and all the piss from your life will be gone.... but by then you won't care one hoot because you'll be relieved and happy.... :&

Welf
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i know exactly how you feel. i have trouble sleeping at night, because my mind races so much. all day, all night. it really never does stop...

 

Yeah but does your heart race too? Coz if it does you really need to chill. Take time out to wind down

Love
Ben
xxx

 

no, my heart doesn't race. i'd be pretty scared, if it did...


i just have alot, and absolutely nothing to think about at the same time.

 

it makes it hurt in my chest.

 

The root of the problem was in your first sentence in your first post. You don't know who you are. Lucy you are whoever and whatever you want to be. Anywhere, anytime. You are who you want to be.

Love
Ben
xxx

 

lucyinthesky
it makes it hurt in my chest.

Anxiety lucyinthesky... it's called anxiety and anxiety causes worry which in turn causes your muscles to tense up... hence... in your case... hurt in your chest coz thats the place that for you.... you tense up in.... for some its a hurt head or hurt shoulders etc...

Yup be who you want to be... coz like I said before.... you never get to find out who you are... or why? or what for? So let go... live and be whatever you want to be for the moment...

But friggin hell aye... if only it was as easy to do as to say.... Anyway... you're at a crappy age and everything hurts... but it will pass... eventually... maybe... hmmmm... maybe not.....

Welf
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morphine helps ...sometimes sex ...hard work and advercity can distract one

 

Or knock yourself out for a very long time... then you wouldn't have to think for a very long time...

Welf
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Hey Morphine I get 3 shots of that a day (Prescribed) I can recommend that, sex is a bit crazy on morphine, I have never done a day's work in my life So I'm either a musician or a lawyer, I am a musician.

Love
Ben
xxx

 

I'm pretty much the same way.

 

that is no fun, but you know, maybe it's a blessing in disguise because people who are totally comfortable with themselves and their surroundings tend to be unquestioning and subsequently uninteresting.

maybe you are on the brink of a new level of self understanding?? maybe there's something bothering you that you just won't admit to yourself?? maybe something inside you is just ITCHING to get out and once you find your medium you will be able to unleash your torrent upon it!!!

either way, know that we here at hipforums think you are awesome and amazing. the real world isnt sane so how can any one who exists in it be? those who think they are sane are ASLEEP.


*hugs*
serra

 

thanx so much for your posts,
but that, right there, was the best line! You're a sweetheart serra, thank you

 

you're welcome lucy!!!!

 

i used to be that way, just take time out to forget about everything, quiet your mind, try and meditate a little, and stop with the useless thinking. you dont know who you are yet, and thats ok not many people do because everyone has different aspects, and thinking about it constantly will just put you in a deeper state of confusion. and when you start to recognize that you are going through the same thinking patterns over and over and they are leading to nowhere then you realize that youre whole thought process is just a vicious circle. reccomended reading: alan watts "become what you are"
anyway- hope i was of help to you--+peace+--

 

I'm the EXACT same way. I sit there for hours at night and all of these thoughts go through my mind. I worry about everything. All these opinions and thoughts go crazy and I cant breathe. Anxiety is going to be the death of me. But I can't stop it, and I can't slow it down. So, I simply go with the flow and feed off all of my ragging never ending thoughts. That's all I have to do.

 

dont worry about it. we are all crazy in our own way. its the "sane" people that im worried about. they are usually the ignorant ones that grow up to be axe murderers and whatnot.