My Heartsickness..

I don't actually know why I'm gonna tell you my story here... if you want to, you can post something, if you don't want to, you don't have to.

Last days, I'm really depressed. Why..? Because of Love.

I don't know what I want.. I like/love three men. Mimi (who you can already know) and two others.

I met Mimi on Wednesday and slept in their hotel.. not WITH him.. :H Actually, I don't know what to think about it. He was very tired, so maybe that's why we hadn't talked that much. Next day I wrote him thanks for letting me sleep there and "good luck in USA".. and he sent me a lovely message. I think he also doesn't exactly know if he wants me as a friend or a girlfriend.. Next time I'm gonna meet him will be on.. 9th of Dec. ... so we'll see.

The second one's called Denis. The first time we met was about 10 months ago. Then I saw him in summer.. and month ago, my friend, who knows him a bit better, told me, he said he loves me.. wants my phone number.. and was happy when my friend said she believes I would write him back if he said something.. He still hasn't written. My friend said he hadn't a mobile phone.. maybe he still has no phone..

And the third one's called Peter. I met him on internet.. but in a while we talked like we know each other for 100 yrs.. He said I'm one of the most beautiful girls he has ever seen and wants to meet me. He's fine.. 15yrs older than me, but that doesn't matter.

And then still one "special". That my friend from the story number two, sent me photos of a guy who was the nicest and sweetest guy I have ever met.. but he doesn't live in Czech republic any more, and I don't have any contact to him, so it's really over.

So you see, three.. four.. guys.. and I don't know which one I want the most. I think that second one, Denis, because he is .. so cute. But what can I do when I don't have his phone number and he still hasn't written anything..

 

All I can say is.. 32 and 17 are very different, and it would not take long to find that out. So I would definitely avoid that.

 

is there a rush to even make a decision, no one seems to be gettin' hurt by this.....give it time and see wot develops natrually mebbe?

 

i knew a girl that use to love me,but she had the same problem you have now.......she ended up picking the guy who was going to bethere for her...and that really hurt me.........i think you should try with Denis,try to get a hold of him.....

 

It's interesting you're in a kind of situation that you're in, Jana, because I was just talking to my net-sister tonight and she told me that she had a similar "dilemma" to your own.

At this point, especially ragarding your situation, I can't really say much other than not to rush anything for the time being. Yes, it may be rather stressful at times, but you also don't want to be to quick to make a decision and end up regretting it later on. In other words, one of the guys you've mentioned might end up being the one for you, but it could also be that none of them would turn out as the guy for you. I guess the only way to know is by getting to know them better so you have a better understanding about each of them.

In the meantime, I'm actually glad that you decided to vent here rather than keep it bottled inside you. I don't expect my comment to be helpful, but I thought I'd stick my nose in a bit.

Peace,

 

I think so..

 

it doesn't look like you should pick one in a rush, so just relax and see what happens. It's normal to be attracted to many people at the same time, but sometimes we tend to confuse our feelings because we feel lonely, insecure, etc I wouldn't go for the 30 something guy btw.

 

OK.. thank you, Zeppelina.. I needed someone to tell me just "relax and see what's gonna happen". though I still hope Denis will call or something.. I believe he will.

 

oh well if the 30 year old dude calls, just take it easy, dont get too involved. Guys that age have their shit together, girls your age still have a lot to learn. Just be careful about that, still, it wont mean that you cant have your fun!

 

Denis's not 30.. I guess he's younger, but it doesn't matter.. thanks.

 

name confusion...if this Denis dude calls, go for it.

 

.. if he calls I guess he's still shier than me.. so.. maybe in January... February...

 

OK, ehm.. I don't wanna be ridiculous.. or so, but I'm still thinking about Denis.. Look, he lives in such a village, that is cca 10km far from my town.. but I don't know anybody there, except of him.. and I really have no contact to him.. aah, I'm still thinking of going there, you know, sit in a pub.. and maybe he could come, don't you think? Anyways, it's not upcoming, the first free day I'm gonna have, will be on next Friday, but I just can't stop thinking of it.. hm?

 

yaaaaaaaay!!! Just to let you know... DENIS finnaly wrote me.. so on Tuesday...

 

oooo an update those are usualy rare. so hows everything going with that?

 

I say don't worry about it.

 

OK!

I think I really fell in love with him..

Yaaaaaaaaay, he is sooo cute! On Thursday, he's gonna call me and on Friday we're gonna meet! I caaaan't wait!!!

 

yay! good luck with that! have fun!

 

I have met many, many 30-something year olds who definitely do not have their shit together... and know of several 17 year olds who are more grown up than many 40 year olds. I think that's a really scary generalization to base judgements and decisions on.

 

ehm, as I look at my last post, those were too strong words, but well, he's fine