Dear Micha,

Feel better soon.


please..


love,
Micha

 

...today i had so much.....god
and i can't get rid of it
i wanna get rid of it so bad
i try so hard, ya know...i try so so hard
and it's never good enough
it just sucks
and i feel like i'm never good enough for anyone
and i have to try and try and keep it all up for everone else and not let anyone down
and i'm just letting myself down
but idunno
i just..can't help it
i don't wanna get better
i took six pills today
i don't even know what they do
hah..
yay..
i wanna be perfect
i wanna be acknowledged
i wanna be special.
jsflkdghdrah





blah..
this isn't really toward anyone to understand and comfort me...
except for nate maybe
and adam..












dear micha,

shut the fuck up.

love,
micha

 

Why do I feel like I have to impress EVERYBODY?

 

you dont. all that matters is that YOU are happy.

 

I can't help it

 

you'll live through it micha. moan as much as you want, but things will get better someday

 

theres something you don't know, pauly
and i think you'd understand if you did..

 

Well even though i dont knwo whats goin on fully with you... I think you are special.. and you dont have to prove that to anybody

 

probably...but im tired of hearing bad things...

 

ya..it's pretty bad..

 

Youve got a sparkle and a life. Unleash yourself. The fact that youre here (on earth, alive, what have you..) says alot. Keep movin darling, youll eventually fall into the flow

 

yep.... you remind me of myself at a younger age lol