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The Change

Discussion in 'Poetry' started by Crimson, Oct 18, 2005.

  1. Crimson

    Crimson Member

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    The Change



    It’s been one year now

    And what has change?

    I'm still crying

    I'm still hating what I have done

    I’m still hating who I am

    The anger is still there

    Reality catches up with me again

    A tear slowly rolls down my face

    What have I done?

    Have I done the right thing?

    I hate him

    I hate being alone

    I try not to be scared

    Afraid to close my eyes

    Wish I had someone to hold me

    To tell me ill be ok

    To tell me ill get through this

    I feel the wall come back

    Not again!

    I don’t want this!

    I want to run

    I want to hide

    What will it take damnit?

    When will god let me be!?

    Stop killing me!

    Stop torturing me!

    What the fuck do you want from me!?

    Answer me!


    This poem is to god and my father.. my father is a child molester.. he molested my twin sister.. causing my mother to turn into a total case (not her fault).. and causing a lot of pain in mine and my twin sisters life.. i wrote this becasue of all of that shit
     
    Crimson, Oct 18, 2005
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  3. sylvanlightning

    sylvanlightning Prismatic Essence

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    Oh, thats powerful...
    well written, way to open.

    The anger is good,
    perhaps you will be able
    to be gentle with yourself someday.

    I'm so sorry.
     
    sylvanlightning, Oct 20, 2005
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