oh my god, i feel so supremely awful now

so my uncle's in prison. we won't get into details as to why, but he is.

when i get a call and answer, and theres a moment of silence followed by a computerized voice, i hang up on reflexes. i just simply don't care to listen to a recording....if somethings important enough to call about, have a human being call me. anyway, i'm sitting here at my parents' house, and the phone rings.

hello?

nothing. then a computer......so i hang up.

after i hang up, what the voice was saying JUST registered in my head....

"this call is from a federal pr...."

it was my uncle, in prison, trying to reach his sister. the cost of making calls from prison is enough that whoever makes those phones they use should be locked up, because it's a form of robbery itself. and i hung up on him before even getting to talk to him. my folks aren't home anyway, but i just feel so fucking bad about this.

i'm just imagining if i ever go to jail or something. its one of my worst fears. even with many people around, it would feel so isolated, so terrible.....and then, if i got the chance to call loved ones, and i get my hopes up and call when i think they'll be home...and they pick up and hang up before i get to talk to them....and i just know i have to go back to my cell and wait for another day for another chance.....

god i feel bad about this.

 

When I was living with my folks my sisters boyfriend would keep calling from prison and I'd hangup on him without a hint of regret... that guy was a douche

 

yeah, my uncles not anywhere close to the top of my list of favorite people, but he's family, and i do care about him regardless, and i dont think he deserves to be there. plus, its just got to be so awful in prison, even at a low security prison.


its not a summercamp, you know? he just wanted to talk to his sister, which is more than reasonable.

 

I suggest thinking before slamming the phone down.

 

Aww Don't feel guilty, you didn't know, and your uncle probably thought it was a mistake...

 

awww man, thats rough well, you didnt now, don't beat yourself up over it, now you jsut know for next time

 

meh, its alright, i guess...i just found out he's released in november anyhow, so it should be ok.

 

if you shit in your pants you will only have shitty pants, nothing else.

 

Don't beat yourself up over it, it was an accident. I probably would have done the same thing. I almost always hang up on computer recordings.

Hugs...