Journal MERGED

σ I have a journal..and sometimes i write in in religiously...I want to have it for the future...you know to look back upon things...to like have a book of my life, thoughts, and creations..but it seems like when everything is going pretty good i don't feel like writing...or creating..i wonder why that is...emotion is inspiration... ↔

 

I don't know why that is. I'm a lot like that too. But, I've noticed that depression is a good muse. It's terrible to say. I just wish I could live a carefree life. It would be great, in all honesty. But then my life would be boring and uninteresting, and I'd have nothing to write about.

However, I think because there isn't anything bad going on in your life, you're just so hyped about how everything is going so smoothly. Who knows, maybe you just are too busy to do so. *shrug*

 

I have a journal, and I've been writing in it for about a year now. I feel I should've started earlier, cause a lot of weight from holding in my emotions has been lifted. Sometimes I feel that someday somebody's going to read my journals and understand other times I don't cause I write lots of my crappy poetry in it.

 

I also have a journal, but don't write every day.
It's the same with the moods for me - whenever I'm really down I can write pages and when I'm really happy I just don't feel like it.
Reading my journal must leave the impression of me being a real depressive suicidal girl.

 

Maybe it's b/c I've been writing in journals for so long, or my frame of mind has changed or my depressed stage forced me to start writing about the good things, but now I really write about anything! And the only time I can't write is if I don't know how I feel, and still I just write it out until it makes some sense.

I just went journal shopping b/c I just finished my last journal I probably can't even count how many I've been through at this point, but it really is the best thing I have going for me.

 

i've been journaling steadily since i was 13, almost every day. i still remember my first entry, lol. by the time i moved out of my house i had boxes and boxes of notebooks, 3 ring binders, folders of loose entries. it completely saved my sanity countless times, the only one i could ever be absolutely honest with. i still keep one, but i find i'm being less honest and open in it. not quite as therapeutic. it's def interesting to go back and read my early books. incredibly embarrassing, i blush the whole time. things that now i realize are so insignificant were just my whole world back then. i'm sure the things i freak about now are little bits of nothing too. good luck and def. hang on to them.

 

i enjoy having a journal because it really reflects the person i am. i have been writing in one or another for the past some odd years, just has been forever. it's the best medicine for you because you feel so much better when it's a bad time that you want to take all your anger out or rather the best thing for when you are experienceing the best thing of your life. either way, writing in your journal shows the person you are, when you reflect back and just to have to look upon memories of your past. i think everybody should have a journal because it's amazing to have when you are completely lost about yourself or anything of that sort.

 

In the past, I've written a lot in my journal, but I haven't done it a lot recently because I've been so busy. I need to resume my regular journal writing, but it's very helpful for me. I want to be a travel writer, so I need to get in the practice of writing a lot.

 

There is probably already a thread on here about journals but I wanted to post a new one b/c I have a problem that I've been wrestling with.

I've always kept a journal. It's part of who I am. Two and a half years ago I got married to a wonderful guy, but it drives him crazy when I write. He can't stand that he can't read it. He thinks I'm keeping "secrets" from him and there shouldn't be any secrets between us.

About two months ago he actually read my journal one day while I wasn't home. He got his feelings hurt by some things in there and we got in this huge argument where I felt betrayed and he was hurt by what he had read. That particular journal was almost full and I was so proud of it (like I always am when I fill one up). But after this incident I didn't feel like writing anymore and I threw it away.

Anyways, I'm having a hard time writing now. I still want to but I guess I'm paranoid that he'll read it again. I think that if you stick your nose where it dosn't belong and you get hurt than maybe you deserve it. Even though he promises he won't do it again I don't trust that he won't.

So I've been wondering lately... In my mind there is a difference between keeping secrets from someone and something that is private. I can't put into words what I mean. Is it OK to keep a part of yourself private, that you don't want to share with anyone? Even your husband and best friend?? I don't feel like I'm keeping secrets but I feel like I need space to think and feel and I don't feel like I have to share that with anyone.

Sorry this has turned into such a rant. I fell better now

 

i think you should continue to keep your journals... but maybe hide them where your husband won't find them. what he did was wrong... but in his defense i can kind of relate... i read an ex-girlfriends journal once and found out a whole bunch of stuff that i probably didn't want to know. people make mistakes. maybe he learned his lesson... i know i did. but to answer your question... yes there is a difference between keeping secrets or lying and keeping private thoughts... not even your husband needs to know everything about you and your private thoughts.

 

you should keep writing. you are doing nothing wrong....i think most people have a part of themselves they need to keep private, and that's okay. what your husband did was childish, even though he might have felt that you are hiding things....in relationships you have to trust one another

 

"in relationships you have to trust one another"
although i believe that people should be able to keep things private, don't you wish there was someone you could be 100% honest with and not be afraid? wouldn't that be a comfortable relationship? wouldn't that be TRULY no secrets? i know i've always wished i knew someone like that, and i wish i knew someone who TRUSTED me and loved me enough to be honest about EVERYTHING. but maybe that's just a romantic dream that could never be realized, but maybe that's what we all want...

 

We are allowed to think and write what we like in a journal, it is a private thing. However it does bug inquisitive people. I don't think there is any need to feel defensive about journal writing, although it would be a good idea to do the actual writing whilst alone. You might trying buying one of the those blank 'recipe' or 'address' books to write in to keep him from snooping in it?

 

Some secrets in a relationship can be necessary. And since relationships can come and go, extraordinary pains must be taken to protect said secrets. However, that said, it seems almost impossible to do. There is no foolproof way to write and keep it confidential. I wonder if a used "enigma" machine would even be invincible to todays desktops. Best keep your secrets in your heart of hearts.

 

hey jessibear,
i too think you should continue to write. just because you got married does not mean you should lose part of who you were before you 'tied the knot'. being married does not make you one person, do not allow your identity to be quashed by your husband's insecurities. just because you are married does not mean he has rights over every single thing you think. i write all the time, i write bad and good things about people i love. i do this to remember. because ilove the good and bad in people. to be fair it really isn't ay of his business. i will bet that he doesn't tell you half of what he thinks.
do not lose sight of yourself. you have chosen to share you life with someone not give your life to him.

hope this helps,
do not stop writing,

peace and love
zenry

 

Hi there! I would like to express my opinion about relationship and secrets. Everybody has a right to have secrets. It should not affect our attitude to another person. Nor should it stop us from doing what is right. The reason for that is that another person may not be ready to see certain side of you yet. He/She may never be ready. Everyone has an eternally changing universe inside and it is obvious that its exploration may take some time. While we readily share our treasures with others, some parts of the inside universe may be more personal than other parts. Nobody can claim that he know somebody to the fullest extend. When I love, then I do know whatever my partner hides is no problem. Doubt and love are incompatible.

 

Keeping a journal has been one of the best ways for me to become a writer. When I finally decided that writing is going to be my career of choice I came down with a bad case of writer's block. It was not acceptable but then I started to write in a journal about once every other day. Before I knew it my pen was touching paper and I was back to creating.

I was just wondering if any other writers out there keep or have kept some type of journal that has helped you out. Be it online or otherwise. I know that it has helped me out plenty.

Casper

 

I do. It is amazing. I keep a blog and a physical journal. Actually, check out the blogshare line if you have a blog.

 

i keep a philosopical journal all my deep thoughts go in their realy helped my writing