Help, (I need somebody) Help, (Not just anybody)

I wrote the following piece a while ago... Its a sort of "Help Wanted" ad...I guess.....
Help is still wanted.

I don't want to find a girl. I want to have already found one. I'm just so tired of being...alone. I don't want to wait another minute. I want to wake up and find that this was all a nightmare, shaken awake by cool, soft, affirming hands. I want someone to hold as I fall asleep, someone who I can watch, as they breathe when I wake up in the middle of the night. Someone who values my life more than theirs, and whose life I value more than mine. I want to be wanted. And I know that this girl I speak of girl is worth waiting for, or at least I hope. But wouldn't it be nice if I could have found that girl three minutes ago? I know that the next girl I meet might not be the one, for that matter I don't know if I haven't already found the one. But I want the one.

 

i agree completely.

damnit where is my deadheaded hippie boyfriend...or girlfriend! cuz i have yet to find him....or her!!!!

 

Same here, dude. Same here.

 

When you stop caring is when a man/woman will walk into your life. I don't know why it works that way, it must be the self-confidence.

 

It's so beautiful said. really, it warmed me up inside, to know that some people value the preciousness of loive, warmth, tenderess, soulmates.

 

i only seem to stop caring, when in a happy relationship...just what i fear: When i am in a happy relationship, the girls that I have loved, and do love, will suddenly love me, but i won't be available.

I haven't slept much lately. This thing has been weighing my mind too much. I've not been sleeping until 4 or 5 in the last week or so. I didn't sleep at all last night. I cried from 11pm to 4am and then continued, not sleeping, but teary on and off until now. I watched the sunrise though. Helped me to re-realize that time is meaningless, and that love at anytime is good.

Now if only someone loved me..

 

it is 3 pm and i'm still a mess
i think something deep inside me broke.. or maybe just bubbled up to the surface...