gotta me life problem entrusted to you great ppl!

hi everyone,

im pretty drunk at the moment, i can only type due to good practice while drunk but anyway. i am just about to explain my life story to you all in a nutshell.

well, i'm pretty much a fucked up kid. yeah yeah i know every kid thinks that, but serious. im 14. but ppl say i could by my mental attitude be mistaken for 60. i am sad. simple as that,

i am sad because of all the killing, the lack of love int he world. i am sad because inevitably, everyone is just wasting away with nothing. i am sad because what i want, what i need (before i just submit and become a fucked up smakc addict on streets) does not exist... i duno, it does exist. but yeah...

i no poeple i want... i love a lot of people, i just...t his world... why? why? it's all fuckin with my head too much people, you gotta help me, why? why are we even here? and when we are lucky ebough to be given existance, why do we kill, and have bad vibrations no?

let me put it in drunken non ramblin terms... i wana change it. i want peace, love, but i dont know how to go about it. i feel somethin, im gonna be somoene. i no, maybe you've heard it all before, but i swear... i swear...

cos u know, i want a change, not on one thing, on the way the person thinks, we can all live as one, im not fucken religiopus, thos i have a loada respect for ppl who are, but whoever made this place, god, or whoever, we gotta be happy, free, but we're not.

im talkin adam and eve, start again...

i dunno how, im into music, i love it, i would die for it if it were to go away, fuck if anyone in the world were to die instead of me, i would die for them instead. anyone who is readin this. but it shouldnt be that noone die of anythin butnatural, no?

fuuuuck i dunno what im say, just help me, im so pdepressed cos all i want is to make a positive difference and can't, and it husrts... it all hrts...

but don't let me change any of this in mornin, cos i will be sober, but a drunk mans words are a sober mans thoughts, so yeah, i will, im sure, i will change it.. its not a revolution, its greater than that! whoese wimme!

positive vibration yeah!

but yeh, its all wastin away, ill be gone soon if i... i dunno, its just so sad that when im sober i have stood at a roof of tall buildin thinkin, yeah its gonna get better josh, it is... but it hasn

anyone? im a kinda hippy attitiude tho i hat cetorgorizin... but im not happy... i just want other ppl to be...

 

I think the lil' hindu dude Ghandi said it best

"be the change you wish to see in the world"

Clever lil' guy he was........

Take care boothy lad, the world ain't gonna change overnight.....but that don't mean it never will change either...

 

i will take care my friend, and Ghandi is one of my heroes... that quote is one i rmember, as is "an eye for an eye would make the whole world blind" or i thinkt hat was him.

i just want it to change, cos all this stuff happenin in the world... i just feel its my fault for no doing something about it... but i dont know what i can do... i just feel like i have the world on my shoulders... but i know why... it's cause i am constantly being told that i can change the world and will if i want to, but im not sure how, and when i don't, i feel guilty... but is it my fault? not individually, is it our fault?

i dunno, im confused, pissed, stoned, tired, but it a;; boils down to what i really think, i need some drug to get that out of me, is that wrong or normal?

ah i'm so confused, im youn i know, but when i'm olde i feel i want to make a change, a bigger change then ever before, a change for thew better of things, of the beauty of life as should be for everyone... i'm just unsure what path i should take... a visionary with no vision as to where to start, is not much of a visionary, i fear.

 

I like you, boothy hope your hangover wasn't too brutal.

just saying, sometimes the little things matter. Maybe big things are in your future, you're young. and you're a wise soul, you will figure it out. things will get placed in your path, and with your outlook I think you will know what to do when it happens. just stay true. don't be discouraged.

 

Thanks

The hangover is kinda harsh for a hangover... I'm playing football in about an hour too

 

theres no point trying to change people because its up to them to change. theres always going to be people who disagree in your outlook to life. just be who u want to be, because really the majority of people only think about themselves when it comes to that kinda stuff.

 

You always try to tell the truth and work on one person at a time. You try to live your life as you would like to see others live theirs. You talk, learn, and grow. You hope you do more good than bad. You cut yourself a lot of slack. You hold on to the belief that the world can be changed and you never give up.

 

One of the most important things I've learnt during my 29 years on this earth is: you won't ever succeed, so don't bother trying.

 

Trouble is if you do succeed you probably wouldn't even know about it.

Perhaps "Smile and the world smiles with you", "Wave and somebody might wave back"

No-ones here to change the world, try and care for family and friends, thats surely a big enough job for anybody.