Why can't I just feel The way I used to feel? Is this agony something that time will heal? My mind chases itself and feels so unsure Everything's unreal, life is a blur It's hard for me to feel life's humor My head aches as if I have a spreading tumor Growing and growing and making me cry I'm just so scared -- too young to die I miss Mary Jame and how she'd make me fly Thanks to this sickness, I just can't get high My disease is sadness -- where did I go wrong? This journey is carrying on for too long Sometimes I think that my head might explode I carry an awful heavy load My shoulders just aren't big enough for it all I'm trying to handle it, but everyday I just fall Anxiety hurts, my panic is excrushiating It fuels my soul with pain and hating My skull could be cracked open just like an egg So this shit would fall out and I wouldn't have to beg I feel sometimes that there just isn't mercy For these things that have tortured and cursed me Please God I pray for you to take away This vail of uncertainty that clouds everyday I just want to feel real again I want inspirations to express with my pen I need to free all that's gone wrong Just like an old forgotten song Share the glory with everyone And repent for the sins I have done For this God please replenish my life.
wow. its so and powerful and fuelled with passion, straight from the heart. you can feel the longing and aching behind it when you read it. really well written. great job.
Thanks, hon. This really is straight from the heart. Glad you could recognize the genuine feelings. *hugs*
