does this make me a bad person...... ?

you posted before you read my second response. i forgive you.

 

thanks kc.

fucked up thing about him?

i dont "tell on him" but i have learned to know him enuf that, if i retaliated, he'd tell on me. seriously.

 

yes yer whole life you choose to live in my opinion makes you a pathetic waste of oxygen,scum of the earth,useless,pathetic,worse than a bad person..

hell id put yer average rapist above you on a scale of human dignity..

Well you asked..

 

well, all criticism aside, you need to document some of this stuff to protect yourself in the future. photos, medical records, all that. sometimes CYA is the only way to get out alive if there's an escalation.

 

to do something that yer not proud of seems a bit stupid to me......

 

My experience - from ER's and Mental Health Clinics is that abusers never get better - only worse - Get Out Now! - before something happens that will not heal up - there are men in this world who do not hit people

 

coming on an internet forum just to pick on people....


that'd make you a rapists left testicle in terms of worth wouldn't it?

 

she likes it,, its been 2 years of this shit,,shes a drama queen,,THE VICTAM..

 

the commas make me think syphalytic left testicle with a touch of herpes......

now remember I am alluding to my former post.... wouldn't want you to forget that....

 

HHB, have u or have u not seen a change in me lately? (this summer)

or maybe you havent been on here enough or too blind to see it...
other people have and im a total imperfect person. i admit that.

you calling me worse then a rapist though.. that is more then wrong. i just sent you a pm a few mins. ago because i had a question and even though we disagree, i was starting to "understand" you and respect you. i still respect dilli.... and i dont dislike you at all but i seriously think that that statement was wrong of you.

if i was a true cold hearted bitch... i wouldnt have made a thread askign if it's wrong.
you dont know what its like to be in my situation and to be clinically depressed/bipolar and trying to pick your life up.

you are one of the most opinionated people on here and i like that *kinda!*.... it's better then NOT having opinions... however, you are not always right. i hope you realize that.

with respect....

 

i wouldnt say a bad person, but a bad decision maker, yes.

personally i'd recommend telling your folks about it, and if you can swing it pack up everything you need when he's not around and just leave and go with them. shut your phone off. if he has any way of contacting you, break that connection. if you have a friend that lives somewhere far off, even better if you can get there. just go, dont look back, dont give him warning or reason. he should know why, and if he doesnt than he deserves to ache for you. i dont care how much you love him, because you can love someone and still have them be absolutely no good for you. sometimes you just have to bite the bullet and do something drastic. if you won't go to the police to retaliate, go to someone else to protect yourself.

 

do exactly that. don't let your life get ruined....

 

thanks nesta.

i really am getting there. i was in a horrible depression for years and became so reliant on him.... had problems and unfortunally i think he (no matter what his words say, cause they say different then what i "know"), has grown accustomed to it and likes me being weak.

i dont have fam. to go to. my dad's side are alcoholics and addicts that cant stay in one place for a year. my mom's- religious fanatics that think im the devil (funny, im in between the two extremes, lol)

but since i have started to get over my obstacles in the mind *the biggest there can be!, seemed impossible!*, i realize that all good things dont come easily. just some money that i can get now and ......

who knows? i think im gathering the strength.

 

and what about what HHB said? i like him but... im WORSE THEN A RAPIST?

hmmm i guess he's never been raped. i know it shouldnt bug me. i KNOW that. but it does.

 

even if your religious side think you're the devil, if they're real christians, they will help you.

come on there's the whole thing about the good samaritan in there where the person helps someone that is their enemy..

 

yer smart for a 14 year old. just thought id say that.

 

yeah, but most christians are just empty promises and lip service. most churches should be called clubs or social circles rather than places of worship. yeah, there are some sincere ones out there, but almost none of them are actually like that. even if they're good, average people, most wont go out of their way to be helpful to just anyone, despite claiming to believe its what you should do.

 

thanks but i think it's just the view of 14 year olds is pretty low so it makes me seem smart

 

i used to be a christian... kind of... my parents still are and yeah i've seen lots of hypocracy (spelling?) about being good to people that are bad to you and so on. the religious side of the family seems a better bet than the drunken side though.

 

most christians seem to think they are on a football team these days, condemning anyone who isn't. There are ones that get it out there, then there are assface fuckos like that Campbell dildo

its about love and building community, hope, and personal growth, not about anything that those assholes try to make it into.