please help me..... i was in a five year realationship with a man 20 years my senior. for the longest time everything was great. but starting this spring i started to feel like i wanted out. about two months ago i told him that i was no longer happy and moved out. i had been unhappy for a while before i got the balls to say anything. for the first few weeks i was okay, now i fell like i made a huge mistake. i have been crying for over a week (which is very out of character for me) and just don't know what to do. even when i left i thought i still loved him but just wasn't in love with him. two days ago i went to his house to get somethings and ended up sobbing and telling hime how much i missed him. i asked him if we could talk and maybe see each other. i really feel that we got into a rut and i didn't try to work it out, i just left. but i;m scared that if we get back together things will go back to the way they were and i'll be unhappy again. the last thing i want to do is hurt him more by leaving twice. i was thinking of asking him if we could stay living serperately but see each other and see how things go. i feel like what we had is worth another try. my mom says she thinks i'm just lonely and want to be with someone familiar. i don't think she is right but i am scared of the possibilty. please give me your honest opinions about what i should do.
spuff has a good point. please think of all the things that you love him for. Think of all the things of witch he shows his love for you. You need to isolate the very reason why you dont feel happy when you are living with him. Love can be a very fragile and sensitive subject so please take care in finding out what you want. Its good to care about people but you must make actions on your own accord right now. You my friend are the most important person in your world. do whats right for you. It sounds like you need to just work things out in your mind. Please do tell more. So it can be easier to help you. let peace be with you~
If you just want to feel loved, find a man who is involved with the mafia. The great thing about doing this is that whenever you have a problem with someone, you can just go to him and your problem will disappear to the bottom of the East River. It may make you feel uneasy initially, but it will help you get over your fear of hurting other peoples' feelings by solving problems this way. It was hard for me too when I had to do this for my girl, but afterwards she fucked my brains out and told me she's never felt so loved before. It's all about devotion.
