Last night I...

i cut myself.. it hurt so much at first, but then it felt good...
i just feel so alone, so useless.. would anyone notice if i died?
why did i have to be born.....

 

Come in my arms and everything will be fine.

 

if only it was that easy...

 

Well, yeah.
What is your problem then?

 

ach, i've enjoyed some of yer posts here.....shame you'll be dead soon (if yer keep cutting)

 

why thank you.. how nice of you

 

yeah...i've always had this annoying compassionate streak.....

 

Sorry, I only tried to help you.

 

Babe, you REALLY dont want to go there. REALLY... it feels so good, but... its not good, and it doesnt help, and people will see, and they will ask, and the scars... theyll be there forever...

but if you do decide to cut, take it from me, try the top of your thighs, people dont see them there... and no one has to know.

 

Well, apart from the fact that you have a main artery on the top of the thighs, so a lil' "feelgood" cut might actually cut yer a lil' too deep....and you'll bleed to death long before you can get to hospital, if yer change yer mind

if yer like the relief from pain and blood....get tatoo's.....gives yer releif and some bugger might actually like 'em

 

While trying to be compassionate about the subject, I just have a hard time understanding this whole cutting thing. It must have skipped my generation because I was a fucked up teenager as were all my friends and no-one could ever talk me into cutting myself. I mean, our body is a gift...why cut it up? I would much rather smoke a joint.

 

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i mean outside the leg, not inside

 

it's just easier to deal with physical pain than emotional pain..

 

Hey Hun, You may be alone at the moment there in Iceland, but it's only a tempory condition. No one with your beauty and budding wisdom will be alone for very long. You're certainly not alone here even if it's only cyberspace you and your posts would sorely missed if anything were to happen to you and from the responses I see to your posts I'm sure I'm not the only one who feels that way. Please take care of yourself Hun. HUGS

 

ah, gotcha......yeah, yer can hack away at the outside/hip area all day

 

thanks hun *hugs* it means alot to me.. i only wish i could believe you...

thanks for the love though people

 

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Seriously....yer seem intelligent enough to know that yer talking bollocks....life might be pretty shitty, hell, it usually is pretty shitty....but it's even more shitty covered in scabs and sores.....

look after yerself, think and act...not react

 

It depends on the degree of pain but why not get more creative with it if it if you are going to do it anyway? But a heavy bag and beat the hell out of the thing until you drop from exhaustion. You will hurt and your will bleed from the knuckles and feel some real stinging pain but at the same time become pretty good with your hands. Hell make it a boxing lesson instead of a stereotype so if nothing else you will learn how to throw a vicious punch. I know the pain is inside and emotional and thats what needs to be worked on or maybe not right now. Maybe you are just in a place that u need to let it out as it sounds u are and no harm can come from that. Join a gym, box 200lb men. Its like the Fight Club, not much matters when u bring it down to that primal of a level and aftter a a few rounds of relative safe battles u will quickly see the other problems take a back seat. I am sympathetic don't get me wrong but I say get up and fight, fight this feeling, shake up your life. We are all so much stronger than we know when we test ourselves and that might sound like bullshit but it's not. We are all getting weaker as a society; I see it in myself. Hell if I could only be as strong as my grandfather and other past generations. I think creativity and will is the way to go. Don't let the word beat you.. fuck that, Ive been there. It sounds mean but stand up and fight! face it head on! Sympathy and pity are the gentle hand that kills the will and soul. If u get enough people saying ah poor you!!!! Poor girl, so sad thats what brings you down.
again, just my opinion and what do I know but it might be worth a shot
peace
Gentle