title say's it all really....i won't post on the forums anymore for a while...i may come back here some day, but, at least for now, i can't. i've been quiet for a long long time anyway, so alot of you prolly don't know me, but this place has helped me in many ways, and is/was a big part of my life. though i don't want to say why i'm leaving, i will try and explain the meaning behind my reason. i am lost, not how i was when i first came here, but in a different way, one which i must find on my own. i used to think i was nice, different, yada yada...ego, or whatever you want to call it...i still know i am the same person, but i have lost part of that person and need to find it again. in losing it, i made many mistakes, greatest of all hurting those dearest to me, and i doubt i'll ever forgive myself, let alone be forgiven by them. i doubt this makes much sense, but i need to make sense of it myself, and writting it down helps. i also don't want to leave this place, this nest of peace and friendship, which i have found comfort in for a long time, but staying here won't do me any good. i won't be going to beautiful days, but i don't want to lose touch with my friends on here, though i have probably lost many due to my actions. i'll still pop on here to pick up messages and such, and it'd be good to hear from some of you if you do want to stay in touch or anything. i'm in a good place though (so don't worry, though i don't deserve worry), in an odd way. i am searching out beauty again, just the other day i biked up to the top of a hill as the sun was rising, and sat watching mother natures art unfold before me, feeling her rain beat my chest, as her rainbow flashed in my eyes...last night i walked in a ramble, seeing shooting stars and listening to foxes on their nocturnal patrols. i am working 5 days a week, which keeps me busy and earns me money for uni...i long for falmouth, for my friends there, my new safe haven, but i need to be away from all safety, i need to be stripped bare to discover what lies beneath it all i am finding out more about myself, and someday i know i'll return to the person i am in my dreams. for all my crimes, i have never intentionaly done bad, i just lacked strength and direction i wish you all the greatest happyness in life...follow your dreams kieran xxx ps: i am not proof reading this, one of the things i've learnt is things that are in the past can't be changed, but hopefully ammended
More affairs of the heart ? It's not easy going through life without causing the occaisional distress. The best you can hope for is realisation of errors and hopefully learn from them. Enjoy your sabbatical, and god bless. Happy Trails.
Well that's the point of a forum. I always feel free to get bored of this place or feel I'm missing out on the outside world by spending too much time here, then go and catch up with it and perhaps come back next time I can't think of anything better to do. It's always good to beat an internet forum addiction.
I'm not angry as such with you about what you did, though I've been wanting to ask 'why' since I found out. I won't tell you you hurt me, because in all honesty I'm still not entirely sure what it is that's been going on. Anyway, despite everything that's happened, I wish you luck in finding whatever it is you hope to seek. Stay strong. you're beautiful
wow man no offence but some has issues its like your either a hippie or your like a suicidal person man best of luck to you man don't do anything you'll regret. Peace out :H
i miss you. i love you. u are grand and i hope u find what it is you are searching for, truly, your friend always, Roly.xxx
aww kier!! im always here... where ever here is..... im always there. You may not think you deserve it but help is all anyone ever needs.... and we've all made misstakes.... EVEN ME!! (i know.. shock horror )
Good luck in your new adventure... Hope to see you back here sometime... don't hesitate to keep and touch and email me anytime... Remember... everybody makes mistakes... it is what makes us human... Have a good time... Fly...
Don't be too hard on yourself kier, it happens to us all and it makes us better people because of it. You are a wonderful person and seep down inside you know this. This mistake was meant to happen, to help you grow, to help you see. Trust in the universe for she knows what is best for you, it will all be alright. Go out there, make amazing connections and never ever feel guilt. Let go of things like the wind lets go of the leaves when it brushes past the trees.Love everything, not just one person,as its never just selective love you feel-its love for everyone and everything. You are wonderful and i love you, good luck dearest you. tread softly and stay in touch. *big hugs* Namaste Uma x
Oh for fucks sake. What a load of pseudo-hippy new-age wanky tripe. Why don't you tell that to the millions of people suffering and dying in the world? Or does the universe just know what's best for comfortable middle class Westerners? Handy, huh? And Kier. Go find yourself. Do what you have to do. But stop being such a pretentious twat about it.
There's only so much pompous hippy drivel that I can stomach before I start twitching and glancing longingly at the kitchen knives. It's safer if I just vent! And anyway, y'all know you'd say the same if you had the balls
Thats got me in stitches !! christ almighty im in tears deary me... Though i think Sal would have a fit if he seen that heh
Come on now Dok'..... that was uncalled for. If you have nothing better to say fuck off (my balls are large)..and leave this poor delicate flower alone Peace and Love.. Having known part of the reasoning behind kiers predicament.. i have to say he should be on Trisha rather than finding himself and *insert pompous hippy drivel* . Though i have respect enough not to be a complete knobjockey. I don't know, what has become of your tolerant and caring temperament ?? are you not 'getting any'...
I'm sorry, I forgot what a sensitive little daisy Kier was. My most humble apologies for potentially tweaking his petals. You're scaring me now. No. You're mum stopped putting out
Yes poor Kier.. i hope you can sleep at night. I am scaring myself ... i promise to return to my usual state once the love bug has quientened down. Congratulations you have just insulted me more than that billy bragg quote/song that other charming fellow posted earlier..
