I have a serious problem

I have anorexia. It is getting out of hand. Soaring Eagle told me to post these pictures and get your comments on which ones look better. I was going to do it anonymously, but I have nothing to hide.

Me at 115

These are pics of me now. http://www.freewebs.com/myanapictures/index.htm, I dont know if this will work. Please check it out.

 

which ones look better? None of them to me... it looks like your body is starving, is dying on you. Have you looked into any counsellors for this? This is the sort of thing that you really need professional help to get through, help which those of us online can't really provide

 

That first pic didnt come through, so you can just see the other ones, ive been in treatment for years. Now, I have lost hope. The lowest weight I have been is 68, highest 120. I am at 97 right now. Those pictures were taken at 85-90 I think.

 

The one you posed as you are "115" doesn't work. So, that one is not being considered.

Of the ones on the site you posed, I would say the first couple look the best... but even those are looking too thin.

You need to get some help. Soaring Eagle is right. Get to a hospital... NOW! I understand wanting to be thin, and I understand having a skewed body image... but it's gone far enough.

Listen to your friends, and stop it before you have done irreversible damage to yourself.

 

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makes me want to invite you too a barbeque

 

Get some help soon sister. From what I can see of it you have a pretty face, but that body! All I can think about it is, 'What death camp did you escape from?' I hope you get help soon before you do yourself irreversable damage.

*HUGS*

 

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE get some help, sister. You look like you're killing yourself slowly. You need to do this to save your life, do you realize what danger you're in. Please go to a psychologist and then when you leave there go to your physician.

Just know that you are loved....but get some help...PLEASE.

 

you look way to skinny in all those pics, particularly in the ones towards the bottom of the page where you can see all your ribs...I think the general consensus here from what others have said above me is yes you do look sick....do you have any body around you to help you deal with this? It would be much more useful than us on line here....

maybe someone can put yu in touch with people near you that could help?
good luck and take care.
stephanie

 

Liver, that was really mean. Please refrain from dissing people who are asking for help. Thank you.

FlwrChild. Please, honey, there is help out there. Some of the womyn here can help with referalls, I would think. But therapy and maybe meds are the way to go.

Good luck, and Blessings to you, honey,

Maggie

 

you need to get out of the pro ana mindset. It's not a powerful lifestyle chioce. it's a disease. Your body is withering away. Tell someone and start the long climb back up to being healthy.

 

yes get to a doctor. change whatever damn hospital you were at before when you were being treated "for years" while your at it buy some sutagen or some ensure to gain some weight... please we dont need another sister dying

 

Please get help ASAP! My best friend went through the same thing for years until she got help. She was still living at home at the time and had support from her family; which helped. But her parents had to end up filing for bankrupsy just to pay for all of her medical visits.
PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE get some help. Life is so much more then being thin or attractive or whatever. You do not look healthy at all and one day you sickness will catch up to you if you don't get help, and it could turn out really bad. I am sure you are a wonderful girl and I am sure there are alot of people out there that care about you.....so please get help and take care of yourself!!!!
Much love and luck to you!

 

The thing is, I am almost 25 years old. I have been in treatment for anorexia since I was 13. I dont know what to do anymore. I dont think I want it bad enough. I just kind of wanted to get your input. Thank you all.

 

I can't see the 115 pic, only the anorexic ones. You definately need to get help. You admitted yourself that it's getting out of hand (by the looks of it it already is out of hand), so what are you waiting for? Please check yourself into a treatment center. Anorexia isn't something that can be cured in a month long stay at a hospital or clinic, it takes time. It can take years and several stays in a clinic until you can truly recover.

 

this is analita at 115

i can tell you all..at 115..she looks great.. perfect really..but i['ve seen her at 75..and it scares the hell out of me..shes a really wonderful person.. but..really is a posterchild for what this disease can do to you..its distorted her so badly she chose that..unatural vbody..over love.... people..keep your posts possitive & helpful please..& if you cant..just dont post..perhaps we..as a caring loving family..can help her where all thrapies have failed

 

I can see their point though... Sometimes these issues are hard to comment about. I'll admit if I was anorexic I think that particular sandwich would put me off for life.

But seriously, hun... Find something you like eating, realise that partners actually seem to prefer bigger partners and that it's only the magazines that think being a size 6 is perfect. I'll admit, I love a flat tummy like yours but you can have one of those and be bigger. Trust me. SoaringEagle is right and always talks sense. I like to think I do too. There are all sorts of ways to get through this. A councellor will know all the ways, if you're not satisfied with yours then ask for a new councellor!(SP?)
We will all be here too if you want to PM us. You're beautiful but you are ill and must get yourself better so your body does not suffer on the inside.

 

Well, I have gone to many treatment centers, I have numerous doctors, nutritionists, caretakers and psychologists. I am just getting so frustrated with myself. I know it has to stop, and i need to be able to live a normal life. It just seems like nothing is helping. I dont have much hope left.

 

Yes im in agreement with evryone else im sure soaringeagle's right wen he says u look perfect at 115, i weigh 84lbs (just the way i am unfortunately) and not many people find that attractive (more freakish than anything) so being 75lbs aint doin urself any favours. Get well soon!

 

your age is no excuse.

If you don't want it bad enough, nothing anyone will ever say will change your mind. no amount of pity of sympathy will get you motivated. If you want to starve to death, then give up.

But if you want to get better, you have to keep working. It's hard, but it's worth living for.