or is it just me? RIP Scott J. Kelley 2/20/77-9/22/04 Missed and loved forever. Death is nothing at all Death is nothing at all. I have only slipped away into the next room. I am I, and you are you. Whatever we were to each other, that we still are. Call me by my old familiar name Speak to me in the easy way which you always used Put no difference into your tone Wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow Laugh as we always laughed At the little jokes we always enjoyed together Play, smile, think of me, pray for me Let my name be ever the household word that it always was Let it be spoke without effect Without the ghost of a shadow on it Life means all that it ever meant. It is the same as it ever was There is absolutely unbroken continuity What is death but a negligible accident? Why should I be out of mind Because I am out of sight? I am but waiting for you at an interval Somewhere very near Just around the corner All is well. Henry Scott Holland 1847-1918 Canon of St Pauls Cathedral
its unfortunate that such an accident would take away a loved one. whether it's a car crash or some mishap or its because the person decided there was no reason to live - it just makes me want to yell at the world and say "Why Now!?!" I remember when I lost my great uncle from cancer. the reason he had cancer was he worked in a rubber and plastic manufacturing plant in his 20s. the effects from handling the chemicals without protection bit him in the ass 50 years later. it wasn't his fault; there were no government regulations in the 30s. The main reason I felt it was unfair was because the day he died in the hospital, he was angry at the world. thats one of the saddest and painful ways to die. Another thing thats sad is when people decide to end their lives, knowing it will affect there love ones. I'm only 20 and I've been close - but there was always something that was stopping me from making the act - the person that i loved. that was then. Thankfully I'm getting over things and my future is looking a little better. Oh well. i hope things get better. What happened with your loved one was very unfortunate. Good luck Best of luck to you, fzliveson.
everyday for nearly nine months, Effen martini's straight no vermouth (if i'm forced to, i'll settle for grey goose), my saving grace.
i lost my best friend back home from suicide 2 months ago, and another friend casey 7 months ago who was hit by a car. so ya losing people really hurts. im still not over it, and dunno if i ever will get over it
I have lost someone very special it was two and a half years ago.... but I can still feel her moving in my belly I will love her always and miss her constantly Elaine Elizabeth 2-10-2003 born three days after her death
I can't believe I'm actually home before 6am, but here I am, trying to be proactive and get at least a few hours before going into the office tomorrow at 8, or to be without denial at least making it in before 11...yeah I'm rambling, I'm at the peak of my nightly often daily six to eight martini buzz. Just got in the door and had to pour another before my first attempt of rest and REM tonight. Probably won't pass out until 4 anyway maybe 6, I should have just stayed out. Could have gotten laid, just don't have the energy, and it's too easy..I wonder what it's like having to try, perhaps that will put a spark back in me, trying. Probably not, I've never tried, never had to, probably wouldnt if I did. I still miss him daily immensely unceasingly, he's always there, I see him hear him smell him next to me perpetually. When will this leave?? Will it cease? Am I empty lonely and grief ridden with Effen flowing through my veins and pores without exception because he's gone? Or would I be exactly the same if he never occurred at all? Hold on a sec, I need to pour another........
do you really think it will ever go away we find things to keep us busy... until it races back into our thoughts our situations vary but I fell into that dark place too
It's been a tough weekend, the last many weren't. No rhyme, reason..just is. Life was so good, everything I ever imagined..or didn't. Would have been sitting in Alameda now, married to my male clone (so to speak), business booming and bliss. This is him, piccy doesnt do justice, doesnt even quite capture him physically, but you can see the joy, happiness, love and intense life he had... wish you were here Scott Jonathan Kelley.