DopeSickKid's Poetry

His using his Potery as an outlet to do that if you read what he said-It's his way of dealing with his shit and the way most famous-Artists-Poets and whatever have since we could speak. At least HE is admitting he is hurting most people cover it up by telling everyone else what to do! Or even worse thinking they are doing just fine and everyone else is fucked up.

 

I wonder who's the one with the issues here.. nice going dude.. you must be sooo perfect. His poetry is pretty good, his feelings are very open and honest and his life ain't that easy.. can't you just get over it? Have you never felt lost? My bet is that you were pretty shelterd all your life.. back off..

 

no, thats not what im saying, i know i'm flawed, but i do try and work on the things that i can.

this kid just keeps writing poetry and shelling out attitude...

poetry will only get you so far. poets with such an agressive personality almost never succed..

anyhow, i'm just saying, you can write your poetry, but the kid contradicts himself so much...

"i dont care" one second then "FUKC U U NOTALNT LOSER!!1!" the next.

if your situation sucks that bad, and you recognize the problem, fix it. stop doing drugs, stop fucking at the tender age of 13, and stop having such an attitude.

there are legions of folks who have it worse off than you, and they arent doing drugs or have such shitty attitudes. just because your life sucks doesn't warrent the behavior.


also, the kid said he was much better and smarter than me. thats what i was refering to, im not saying im better and smarter than him, just making a reference to one of his posts... its great that hes creative and all that jazz, but you cant get along on JUST poetry...

 

no, i know i've done stuff to piss people off, and usually i try and fix things up with them. im not telling him what to do, or trying to bully him, im just criticizing his behavior. feel free to criticize mine, just make sure it's thought out and understandable. putting things in poems is a coping method, but obviously, his situation sucks pretty bad, and again, poetry is only a way of coping. if you recognize your flaws, try to fix them. if you have not good shit going down with other people, talk to them. try and work stuff out. the only stuff you really cant help is your parents and tweakers you pissed off.

and i know im fucked up... obviously im pretty neurotic... but i try to help that.. i could've just told the kid that he and his poetry are fucking retarded and so on, but i didnt. i told him i dont like it, and why, and then he gets all offended and angry, and now we're here where we are.

everyone's got their problems.

 

Feeling pretty much upset
should've never gotten out of bed

don't know what to do or what to say
to make everything go away

I want to be there close
and kindly kiss your nose

keep my arms around you tight
untill everything is just right

but maybe if I post this lousy poetry
it will show you my loyalty

that I truly love and care
and have a heart to share

This is poem really getting lame
since I'm not doing this for fame

I just love you so damn much
want to be there for you and such

blah this hardly even rhyhmes
but I'm paying for my crimes

Hun, please don't be mad
it makes me soooo sad

 

Don’t ever stop writing, dsk; you have a knack for presenting raw emotion through your poetry in a way that can’t really be taught. Maybe it’s just the subject matter, but your stuff kinda makes me think of an angry Bukowski (btw, if you haven’t read much of his stuff, you should; I think you’d really, really like). You got a ways to go to get there, but you’re well on your way… keep it up!

-shining star- is excellent… fantastic tone and your use of repetition is just what it needed. Good job!

 

I love you

As old friends we meet
With blood on our hands

You gotta be strong
I’m really scared
It’s been so long

The drugs that you take
Take me as well
I’m going with you
Straight through hell

Difference is you’re burning
While I just stand and watch
I see you yearning

Please stop crying
And hun, keep trying

I love you
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Both poems, well done and compliment each so well. ty both dsk and velvet.

 

They couldn’t handle it
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Not the way we did
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For me it’s been many years
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But there are still those tears
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Sweety it’ll never heal
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He will always be real
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Gotta learn how to cope
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Without all the dope
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Face life clean
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You’re only thirteen
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If I’d loose you
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I’d loose hope too
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nevermind.. I'm not going into this again..

 

Why is it that one has to dislike someone else in order to gain your friendship? That's horrible! One person in particular was sooo looking forward to meeting you until you cut off ties with her due to liking velvet. it's a shame that your hatred controls you so much that you let it dictate who you'll befriend in the process.

Maybe you've been there for dsk, but velvet has been there for him as well. IS she not allowed? what are the prerequisites for helping someone? Hmm... they're friends with Blackie, so I better stay away. FUCK THAT!!!

I have friends who hang out with people I just can't stand. I have good reason to dislike them and they feel they have good reason to dislike me. But when it comes to our mutual friends, I don't talk shit about them and they don't talk shit about me. We like to do something kinda unique. it's called keeping the peace! Velvet is trying to do so. And she's not making her friends choose who they can associate with.

Doopesick- I know this is your poetry thread. I'll remove this if you'd like. I just thought it had to be said.

 

This is good stuff, keep on going, I can read ur shit all day!

 

Silent Night

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Its a silent night.
As my world dies.
Theres nothing left to say.
Other then goodbye.

Im to tired to fight.
To tired to speak.
To tired to say Im right.
To tired to give a fuck about my life.

I stare into the candle light.
As it burns down to nothing then fades away.
Just like my life does each and everyday.


Ya I feel like that alot ....I don't care what these people say, I like your stuff. Keep on going, I want to read more.

 

finally, i have some material that you kids can point and laugh at.

its not POETRY firstly, its designed to be lyrics, but i guess all lyrics are are poetry with music behind it, so yeah, here's my song fried... i'll get all the music uploaded (the song is writen on guitar, but i'll overdub bass, accordion, bongos, and possibly trumpet in there)
loosly based on robotrips, pot, and the imagination i had the day i ate 6 nodoz pills..
i have some of the chord progression in there because i wrote it in 15 minutes when i was stoned... lol...


G C F
couldnt taste the plastic nor could i hear the wind
firey chairs, yellow stairs, too much i would spend
because, there is a reason for candy that is bitter
melted lives, abundant eyes, grey matter considered litter.


G A E
well i'd sit and i'd fry, i'd watch the cars go by,
G C F C
a back with poor posture that isnt quite slouched
G c F G
and i'm slowly melting into the couch..


flipping the channles, blowing my mind
one of thems cushions, they sneak up from behind
taken by surpise, i've been knocked on my ass
vision's getting blurry, everything's moving to fast.

crawling desperatly, i reach the nexus
the EVIL RADATION doesn't quickly effects us
they started to run from the white, blinding light
sooner than later, fucked was their sight...

shit

and so i'd sit and i'd fry, i'd watch the cars go by,
a back with poor posture that isnt quite slouched
yeah i'm slowly melting into the couch..

time goes by slower and slower each second
when not eaten by shoes, it is almost pleasant
finding the true meaning of things understood
a binary mindset- confused with a purple road.

they were out in the lawn and they were bare ass naked
trying to figure out what the rocks had really said
spun whacked and ripped yes and really stoned
the guy in the tree said "update my head phones"

yo


so i'd sit and i'd fry, i'd watch the cars go by,
a back with poor posture that isnt quite slouched
and i'm slowly melting into the couch..

 

I hate you real bad and figured these would suck but I have to say these are pretty damn good, I think they will appeal to more people then alot of other poetry will

 

erasing quoted poems

 

Began reading, and in some places skimming the text, last night. I found myself stunned and transfixed. This young man, DSK, has heart; he is, clearly, an honest, kind, soul. I know that DSK has already changed many people. And if DSK survives for many years, as I pray he does, and grace is still with him this man will influence many people; he will change our world for the better. This man is evolving. DSK if you can see this message, please survive; find a way. I know that many people here share these thoughts. DSK fight, transcend, survive.

All people have expectations and even those who help another are doing it out of their own expectations. Now, here, I am not using the word "expectations" as one might expect; not a typical connotation but, instead, I am saying that we are all true to ourselves even when we give to or help another. Why do we know of, and feel, something called love ?

DSK you appear to be discovering cruelty, and take a lesson from a man 3 times your age we are always being surprized. You are open so listen to this, if you will: convert the pain by acknowledging the truth of your experience including your hopes and dreams. I should say that you obviously already do this, keep doing it. You are a profound manifestation; be proud of yourself; protect yourself; nurture yourself; cultivate yourself. And develope sophisticated indifference with those who mean you no good.

Here is a story, the "wild part", in my view, is not the most important but instead the part about, as I refer here, Love and "facing the self" is the most important part. The friend who was injured and passed onward is my Grandmother.

http://www.hipforums.com/forums/showthread.php?t=102848

David
AKA 23

 

hmm.. the forum is messing up..

 

Since DopeSickKid's entire profile and therefor all his posts got deleted, the poems are gone as well. Therefor hereby all the poems again (at least the once I still have).. because it's a shame that this great poetry got deleted!

THE POEMS
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I Can't Be Perfect, So Fuckoff, And Die

I can't be perfect, no one can.
If you try to reach out, and save me I will bite off your fucking hand.
Leave me alone, I'm better off on my own.
Besides walking alone is all I have ever known.
Take your lectures, and shove them up your ass.
I have already forgotten you, ya your a thing of the past.
I have never loved you.
I don't know what love is anymore.
Your just a shadow, just another fuck to ignore.
Don't bother me with your bullshit, its just another lie.
I Can't Be Perfect, So Fuckoff, And Die.
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No Way Out

Bones heal, but my scars never will.
I numb myself to escape all the horrible pain I feel.
On the inside I feel so empty, cuz the world has stole everything good that was left inside of me.
I try to dig my way out of this hell I'm in, but the world swallows me, and drags me back in again.
There is no way out for me.
I'm lost at sea.
I'm broken like a piece of glass on the floor.
Being stepped on, and treated like a whore.
I am right now wishing I was dead, but in reality I already am.
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Drug Doll

You say your my friend, but all you do is pretend.
The more you fill me with shit ,and lies.
Another part of me dies.
As if you even cared at all.
You make me feel like your drug doll.
With no thoughts of my own. I will live fast then die alone.
In a world of piss, and shit.
I live like a speeding bullet.
My candle wont burn long. Before you know it I'm gone.
Dead, and in my grave, cuz there is nothing left of me to save.
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No Smile

I havent smiled for the longest time.
I have smiled when told to or to make someone feel welcome, but not a real smile
If I could just smile for a minute it would be grand, but my smile is lost deep beneath the sand.
People ask me "Why you so angry man" I reply with I don't know I'm just not happy, and have tried everything that I can.
Drugs helped, but they aren't real.
They just numb everything all the bad shit you feel.
My smile is somthing I desperatly need to find.
Until I do, nothing will ever ease my mind.
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Oblong Box

You said you would be with me whenever I needed you.
Even though You have stranded me at a time that I really do.
Left here with my demons haunting my head.
I don't think there is a soal that can save from ending up dead.
I close my eyes, and see my future laying dead in an oblong box.
Lifeless, and alone beneath the dirt, and rocks.
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Mountain

I keep on climbing this mountain, but it seems to have no end.
It has taken so many people from me it seems the the devil is my only friend.
I feel like giving up. I feel like turning back, but there is nothing left to turn back to.
You push me in my back. You tell me want to do. Even though you don't have a clue the shit I am going through.
Well I say you suck you self richeous fuck besides who the hell are you.
Preaching to me about staying clean about all the horrors you have seen.
All the while you fail to realize I'm living the shit every goddam day.
A life of broken dreams.
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Stormy Night

There is nothing like a stormy night.
Soothing sounds of rain, and the flashes of light.
Makes me peacefull on the inside.
I kneel on the couch, and glance out the window.
Watching the rain pour down, and hearing the wind blow.
Its such a calm place to dwell for a moment.
It's such a priceless feeling, and no greedy fuck can buy it or own it.
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Your Blue Eyes Are Turning Grey

You mean more to me then life it self.
I care so much for you it hurts.
I see you hurt yourself everyday, and I'm starting to see your life fading away.
Your blue eyes are turning grey, and the sparkle in your eyes meant so much to me.
If I lose you. All the love I have I will rip out, and toss it into the deep dark sea.
The shit in your viens is killing you, and I don't know what the fuck I can do, to save you.
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Shallowness

Your so shallow it is sickening me.
How can I trust your when all you do is decieve.
You can't see who I am or see the pain in my eyes.
All you see is my skin, and fill my heart with lies, lies, lies.
You make judgements without knowing who I am.
I'm trying to reach you, but I don't think anyone can.
You fill yourself with false security.
You fill yourself with shallowness, and your heart will always be empty.
Two dimensional thoughts will destroy you in so many ways.
Your just another rat getting lost in lifes maze.
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Lastnight

I can't remember a thing bout lastnight, its all such a blur.
Must of drifted away somewhere, into another world.
I got so high, because I really love to fly.
I don't care if I die, because its the only thing that makes me feel alive.
Its my friend my friend to the end, and I will do it again, and again, and again.
Its such a nice warm place to be, and I never ever want to leave.
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My Eyes Go Black

Your fist hits my face, and bloodys my lip.
Then Rage fills my head, and I start to lose it.
My body goes numb, My eyes go black.
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Soon

My skin is still warm, but inside I'm cold, and blue.
Never wanted to be close to anyone. Not even you.
I feel so far away from everything, and everyone.
I wish I did'nt feel this way. I wish I didn't feel this way. I wish I didn't feel this way.
Still I do, and don't understand why, but my mind is like this everyday.
Theres no relief insight, no one that understands.
They just want me to smile, and fullfill, there demands.
I am trying everything I can to make you happy.
While I remain miserable trying to be somthing I just cannot be.
You put a thousand pounds on my back, and expect me to stay in line.
I can't hold this weight much longer as I keep on falling further, and further behind.
I told you that I would kill myself if you did not help me more.
You will pay for this shit when you find me dead laying on the floor, cold and blue.
Soon.
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Death's Door

Theres no hope in sight for me anymore.
So I am taking a walk to death's door.
I'm gonna open it this time, and walk through the doorway.
I have been here before, but never willing to go this far.
My body is cut up, my mind is so weak, and my soal will always be scared.
I just want to set myself free.
Leave this world behind, and go on with out me.
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Somthing Real

You make me feel like there is someone that doesn't want to hurt me.
It is somthing my broken heart so desperately needs.
No one has ever understood the pain, and hell I'm going through.
Now I know there is someone that has always knew. Its you.
I cry on the inside every goddam day.
But for a moment you make my sadness go away
No matter what happens to me. I will always remember how you made me feel.
You made me feel like I was somthing real.
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Why Didn't You Love Me

I hate you so much you basterd for hurting me.
I have nightmares everynight, I can't fall asleep.
Why didnt you love me, I tryed everything I could.
I wanted so bad for you to love me, but you never would.
The memorys of you still haunt my mind.
It hurts my heart so bad I just want to die.
I wish you would have killed me, like you did to me on the inside.
You feel no remorse for the pain, and hell you put me through.
Goddamit dad I fucking hate you.
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Awake, and Alive

I get this heavenly vibe going through my body, and soal.
Like a bright blue sunny sky, with a soft warm breeze.
Feels as if nothing could go wrong, and all my pain is gone.
I take a walk down the shore line hearing the waves splash.
Its such a calming sound I feel it in my bones, and in my heart.
Thats when I know I am still awake, and alive.
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Darkness Of Depression

I drift away into the darkness in my mind.
Like a Sunny sky, as a huricane rolls in.
It swallows me up, and never lets me out.
Theres no one there to save me.
No one to hold my hand.
No one to set me free.
No one to take a stand.
No one to kill the monster that is killing me.
The darkness of depression rules this land.
I lost my light, and can not see.
It feels like I will be lost forever in the land of the damned.
Inside My Mind.
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Die With A Smile

The rush is so stong, but it doesn't last long.
Before you know it your whole life is gone.
Still don't care about the risks, and the jive.
I would kill myself just to feel alive.
I won't say my prayers save that shit for later.
It's as if I ever cared. At alll.
I just wanna go out have fun get a tan from the sun.
Leave my head for a while, and then die with a smile.

 

(and the rest)


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Walking In The Rain

At this moment I feel calm, and my mind is clear.
I'm thinking of you, and wishing you were here.
One thousand miles seems so damn far, but I will still love you no matter where you are.
I feel so much for you it's so hard to explain.
You make me feel like I do when I'm out walking in the rain.
Free as a bird, holding on to your every word.
My feelings for you will never fade away.
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Horrible Dream

Everything is changing, and I feel like I'm in a tornado.
Its all moving so fast, but I'm moving to slow.
I can't keep up, I can't let go, I don't want to lose all the people I know.
You say its all right, you say its ok, but if it is then why am I feeling this way.
You don't listen, you don't hear me. I feel invisible, and I don't have any relief.
Youn don't help me, you don't comfort me, and it feels like I'm deep asleep in a horrible dream.
Wake me up.

Betrayal

Behind my back is where you stand with a knife in your hand.
Your ready to stab me with your betrayal, and your apathetic mind.
Your words of betrayal cut me deep, cut me so deep inside.
It hurts so much to feel your knife inlodged making me bleed.
You run off, and leave me here to die, and rot.
I thought you were my friend someone I could trust, but like everyone else your not.
It Hurts.
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All That Matters

I wish life could be more kind.
Somthing I, can not find.
Its hard enough just to live my life.
Even harder when loving someone
Still it don't matter what you do
It don't matter, because I will still love you.
Either treat me like a friend, or love me as your brother.
Loving me is like loving the dead
I will always love you my dearest friend.
It doesn't matter what you do.
All that matters is I will always love you.
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Torn

You inflict pain on the weak.
Your evil is at its peak.
What more innocents shall you seek.
Where you will take a leak.
Your asleep, but still awake.
You never give, but you always take.
your torn heart is going to make my heart break.
I can read your lips, and you are a liar.
Setting my mind, body and soal on fire.
Heroin.
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Writing

Writing helps me heal, and ease my pain.
The words flow for me like pouring rain.
It eases my mind, and sets my heart aflame.
It helps to remind me just who I really am.
I don't know if the words come from my heart, or from my soul.
Or if the words will stop the day I don't hurt anymore.
My writing won't save the world, or feed the poor.
Still writing saves me, and I hope it will always have this allure.
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My Only Light

Your the only thing good in my life, and I'm so fucking lost without you.
Your the only light I have left to help me see through the darkness.
You taught me how to love at a time when I had none left inside.
At times I felt helpless you were always the first to be by my side.
Love is the only thing in this world that can't be bought, stolen, or sold
It can only be givin, or recieved, and its a gift that will never get old.
I don't need a thousand friends to feel love from another.
If I have a friend that would stick with me closer then a brother.
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From Sanity To Insanity

Crystalized memories inlodged
deep within your subconscious mind.

Inviting emotions,
which consume the fire,
that emptied the beauty of your intense eyes.

The shallowing river banks, which held your lifeforce,
are now polluted and drained.

Polluted by the poison, shot deep,
inside your withering viens.

You hideaway from the love,
that longs for you,
like dried up grass
pleading for cool summer rains.

Agonizing antagonistic demons,
chip away at your sanity,
demanding you to surrender
the final bit of sanity you possess.

As you struggle to remain afloat,
within heavily troubled waters,
I beg to be consumed by your beloved caress.

I agonize from your agony,
which hurts me

no less.
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Suicide Note

Im just another furture suicide
I was born to lose.
Take your hatefull mind
just dig my grave if it satisfies you.
I dont have a future
I don't have a soal anymore.
There is no love left inside of me.
To you Im just a broke down junkie whore.
Right now I have a gun to my head.
I wanna pull the trigger, but Im to much of a coward.
As if anyone cared anyway.
No one would miss me.
There is nothing I can offer.
To earn someones love.
No one needs me here.
To my mom Im just a useless pansey
Just a immoral queer.
My inside is empyty.
My existance is meaningless.
I never hated anyone except for myself.
I hate myself for being broken.
For being so useless.
My life isn't worth living.
My life isn't worth a dime.
No one will ever love me.
For the piece of shit I am inside.
Take your hatred out on me.
Thats all Im good for.
I will see you all in hell.
I hate everyone.
I always will.

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I dream of you in sweet, sweet dreams

Look into my eyes, and you will see.
Your all I need.

Give me your heart I will never hurt you.
Just as the sky will always be blue.
I will always love you.

When I look into your eyes.
I want to see your love for me.
We will live in love as if it was a dream.

I used to go where eagles dare.
Living my life without a care.
Your love soothed my soal.
When Im with you I don't hurt anymore.

I dream of you in sweet, sweet dreams.
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We Are One Soul, One Heart, One Mind.

To Maya

Beyond the human comprehension of what existance is,
I will love you beyond that.

I will love you until my existance is gone,
when my lifeforce is no longer alive,
and if there is a being beyond that,
I will love you then as well

My love for you goes deeper,
then anything I can comprehend.
Its bigger then myself,
and means more to me then my life.

We are meant for eachother.
To live forever as one soal,
one heart, one mind.
Beyond the end of time
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My Blood

You scar your beautiful self.
Even though your my only light in my darkness.
When you cut yourself you cut me as well.

I want to kill myself.
The only thing keeping me here is you.
Your all I love in this fucked up world.

I hold this blood stained razor blade in my hand.
It has cut into me many times before.
I ponder this as it slices through my skin.
as I feel the old familiar sting.

The poison is rushing through me veins.
I feel the buzz as my own blood rains.
Theres nothing left of me anyway.
Im dead inside.
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Thirteen

Im thirteen, but I have no concept of childhood.
I never had a chance to live one, and I never will.
I live in this darkness my inner hell.
Locked in this prison forever in my torture cell.

There is no light, there is no blue sky.
There is just me, and me wanting to die.
I hate myself so much, and dont even know why.

I see all the kids play, and live carelessly.
I would die for a chance to just let go,
and set my mind free.

This blood stained razor blade is my only future.
I will live my life hurt, and I will die hurt.
Then I will be at peace six feet beneath the dirt.

Which is my future.
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Silent Night

Its a silent night.
As my world dies.
Theres nothing left to say.
Other then goodbye.

Im to tired to fight.
To tired to speak.
To tired to say Im right.
To tired to give a fuck about my life.

I stare into the candle light.
As it burns down to nothing then fades away.
Just like my life does each and everyday.

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Life Of Pain

She Brought me up just to let me down.
caressed my heart just so she could rip it apart.
Gave me some hope even though it was just in my dreams
proving to me nothing is as it seems.
She is just another person that has hurt me.
Just another painful memory.
In reality she was never really there.
Loved her to death as if she ever cared.
As I move on in my life of pain.
I guess I'm the only one who is to blame.
To think I will ever have happiness is nieve.
Somthing I should never ever belive.
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Heart Broken

I have been crying everyday.
The pain of heartbreak is hell.
My thoughts of you just cause this pain to swell.
MOre, and more, more and more.
As I sit here on the floor crying and writing.
The pain will always win whats the use of fighting.
Its just another heartbreak for me out of many.
just some more pain which I have plenty.
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A Little Bit

A little bit of love.
A little bit of soal.
A little bit of heart.
Just be my friend until I grow old.

Never knew I needed anyone.
Until I Met You.

A little bit of pain.
A little bit of humility.
As I cry myself to sleep.
I don't expect any empathy.

Never knew I needed anyone.
Until I met you.

Never knew I needed anyone.
Until I met you.

I Love you.
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Razor Tongued Devil

Your A Razor Tongued Devil.
Tryin To Break Me Down.
I Won't Let It.
My Soal Is Stronger Then Yours.
My Heart Will Beat Longer Then Yours.
My Love Will Be More Real Then Yours.
Your Just Another Noone That Everyone Ignores.
Forever You Will Be.
Forever In My Apathy.
Your In My Rearview Mirror.
As I See Things Cleaer.
Im Somthing You Will Never Be.
Happy.
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The Darkness

Darkness Is All I See.
Nothing, But Broken Hopes And Dreams Just Staring Back At Me.
Whether I Live Or Die Doesnt Mean A Thing.
Cuz I Have No Friends, And This Phone Will Never Fucking Ring.
Waiting For Someone To Be By My Side.
But To Them Im Just Another Meaningless Ride.
Is That All I Will Ever Be?
I Ask The Darkness Staring Back At Me.
I Get No Answers I Get No Empathy.
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Teenage Whore

im a teenage whore just another nobody to ignore. Im a junkie but im happy so dont look at me with your indifferent eye. I love myself, even though I know Im gonna die.

Its all a game in this world. Nothing but money diamonds and pearls. You look at me when i bang my shit, but do i look at you when you smack up your bitch.

Ya im a teenage whore. Just another nobody to ignore. Nothing really matters. To a teenage whore.

My veins are weary from this shit in it. My ma thinks i should be in a fucking clinic, but i say my lies and then steal the money and say my good byes and drift away.

Like i do everyday.

Ya im a teenage whore. Dead inside with no feelings to live for. I ask the man do you want more? He says yes, you fucking whore.

19 mei 2005

shining star
you are after
my nightmares

comfort when Im lost
When Im found
my defender
When there is
Noone to save me

But the drugs
Take, take, take

I keep on
Hangin on

I Keep on
Hangin on

Do you really
Love me.

cus I
Love you