i'm so sad right now....everything in my life seems to be falling apart.... i was doing bad in college so I had to drop out and move home for awhile....and my plan was to join the air force....and at one point i had everything figured out...and now i'm scared to join b/c i don't want to sign my life away...but i have NO idea what else I'm going to do...b/c I can't afford to go back to school on my own b/c my parents are telling me that if i don't go into the air force then I'm going to have to move out on my own which i can't afford right now at all....and also they'll take my vehicle away and make me get my own...something else I can't afford....my boyfriend is in Afghanistan for a year....barely get to talk to him...my dad is in Afghanistan until September....and then Friday I missed a really important meeting b/c my jeep overheated....and then as I was finally on my way to work I got into a wreck..at least it wasn't my fault...but then as soon as I got to work i accidentally broke my glasses and had to rush to get them fixed b/c right now i'm out of contacts and i'm blind without them and then to top everything off........ one of my best friends from college just killed himself........i'm very very down and i'm always the one that's always happy go lucky....but it's like EVERYTHING is falling apart for me.......what did i do that was so wrong? this really sucks..........
Hey Sisters_soul, all I can say that is definitely true is that if you stick around and plow through the crap at the moment, you'll be glad you did for at least some small moments like imagine when your boyfriend gets back from afghanistan and you can give him a big kiss! Nothing else to say that wouldn't sound like oprah winfrey cliches, but really try and imagine being born in a temporary refuge camp in the desert somewhere, watching your parents die from starvation and disease and then starving to death yourself. This happens to babies being born in some very unfortunate places and surely they couldn't have done anything to DESERVE it, as they're babies.. So think of all the blessings you do have in your life despite your problems. Lastly, I think that these crap times come in clusters and obviously you're experiencing one with a few events in it all at once, which means that once it passes you'll have a nice clear run again. Anyway i've felt just low-down-to-the-ground awful in similiar ways before and can only sympathise.
Hey sister_soul. I hate to be someone to give you more problems to deal with but a friend of mine goes to school at the Cidital. I talked to him the other day and asked him what he was going to do when he gets out (because there you have to go into armed forces for 10 years I believe) he said Army. I asked him why he wouldnt go to Air Force because we are in a war in all. He told me that was what he wanted to do but because of all the people wanting to get in the Air Force its almost impossible to get in right now that is if your trying to be an officer. As a fellow North Carolinian I know how hard it is to find good jobs. Try to keep your head high and do what Winston Churchhill said to his men in Europe before facing the Nazi's in WWII. "Never Give up, Never Give Up, NEVER GIVE UP!" Good luck Soul Sister and remember the sun will rise again.
