Mortality

The other evening I was lying on the couch and all of a sudden it hit me that I would die, my body would stop functioning and i would cease to exist. Of course I've known this bit of information for quite a while, but it hit me in a different way, I had a jolt of panic that I would just dissappear one day as well as a sense of disbelief.

Sometimes i find the thought comforting, and others it seems unreal to me.

Just curious about others take on this subject.

 

i get that feeling a lot espiecially cause i think i am sick.


and.... it's in my face. i dont wanna think about it. blah.

 

eh, sorry Trish, didn't mean to bring you down!

You really think you are sick?

 

um, yes, i do.....

 

Honestly, I am not afraid of death in the least.

Death is something that happens everyday, and it's just part of life. Nobody is guaranteed to live until they are 90, and who really wants to? That's why I believe in making the best of life, no matter what you have or don't have, or what your current situation is. Life on earth, I believe, is just one thing the universe has to offer.

 

What do you think is wrong, Trish?

 

I hope you are not.


Sometimes life seems kind of cruel the way it is. How you are faced with the end of it the whole time you are alive, never knowing when but knowing it is definite, which is what adds beauty to life as well.

It's sort of amazing that people can live so long too. There is a chance I could be around for 50 more years...that is mindblowing to me too.

 

i have no fucking idea.... nor do i want to know. i have too much anxiety to go to a doctor so whatever....

 

id have to agree im kinda afraid of dieing, but in a sense im kinda comforted by it that all my problems will go away

 

Do you think it's cancer, Trish?

I think you should go to the doctor.

 

i had a small tumor in the past... i dont know.

i dont like doctors and i just dont know.

 

Quote: Life on earth, I believe, is just one thing the universe has to offer.__________________


I have no idea about life after death. I guess those with a firm belief in it have a much easier time dealing with the thought.

Sometimes when i am feeling particularly in love with life I flash back to really stupid things i've done that I am lucky to have survived and i cringe.

Other times, when i am bored or with a negative attitude about life, I want to do risky things again, the thoughts actually entice me.

Trish, so is this a pysical feeling you are having or is it something in your mind?

I hate docs too, but if you really feel wrong then...

 

You know that thing that has been bugging you or that thing you have been wondering if you should do or not lately?



Just do it.



Yer gonna be lying there on your death bed wishing you had gone bungee jumping or told off that motherfucker who was bugging you when you were 25. Yer gonna wish you kissed the girl or told the guy he was a good looking dude. Y’er gonna want to know that you played the drums the best you could or that the guitar never sounded better than when you played it after being away for a week. You are going to want to be able to tell yourself that you didn’t put up with that shit and moved on when you wanted. You are going to want to know that you meant more than some other motherfuckers feelings and you told that dipshit to get lost before you got stuck in a struggle that you didn’t want to be in.



You are going to want to realize that you did it the way you wanted to,





so,







just do it.



That’s what I think seamonster. Fuck death, it's gonna happen no matter what you think or believe.

 

let's just say this....

i am NOT a hypochrondriac.

 

I am not affraid of dying myself at all... but I would prefer living for a while before, though! I try to make the most of my life, while I can... someday I'll get really old and maybe sick and then I'll wish to die really badly... I think of dying as an adventure. We don't know what's after, so it's pretty interesting!

But if I'm not afraid of my own death, the thought of losing someone close does scare me (see my thread on that).

 

penny,


I LOOOOVE your sig. - that is sooo beautiful.

 

see:design for dying by timothy leary

 

I'm glad you do

 

I thought a lot about this recently while I was reading The Magic Mountain by Thomas Mann.

I am not afraid of death, I am just terrified of suffering before I die. If I was to just die, I would have no problem with that (although I'd like to have sex before I die... ). But I am just so afraid that I'll experience intense pain and agony before I die.

But it is hard for me to imagine that I will one day die, I try not to think about it usually.

 

It looks like I'm in the minority here, but I'm afraid of dying. At least, I'm afraid of dying now. I don't live my life in fear, but there are a lot of things I haven't done, and there are so many things I would like to do. I haven't come close to living a complete life. I know death will come, but it's a subject I don't like thinking about. I want to die with no regrets, and if I died now, I would have some regrets.