My day and thoughts today

hi there

only you have yourself
what you know is what you have created..

to be frank

go for it
get love where you can
yet be aware...

and dont be a machine lover and never
in love
so you need to feel in human who you
feel you love rob.....

anyway enough ...
you know what path you need to walk
and lay of the pills and cans man
remember ive seen my man down there
until he STOPPED....
take care of you...

be whole
be alive.
lovenpeace from saff

dont let anyone ride your path
unless you are real.............

 

Thankyou my little guardian, Always nice to see you again

Don't worry about the cans and pills, I limit my alch intake and have control, I won't tread that path again
The pills are but once a month, but by then I am usually needing them to relax lol. But I use them sparingly most of the time to control my anxiety attacks.

I'm not a machine lover lol, just have a need to express the trapped universal love and romance in my heart, as well as my caring feelings for all beings and people as well as sharing a little laugh with people.

I am confused sometimes even more so lately, I have to wait for who knows what.

I am in circles, there are many paths. But also many problems.

My heart and I are at slight odds in some ways though, thus a wheel and circles in life still happen until I can solve the puzzle.

You know I'm real lol... but I know your meaning.. my path is a strange one, which is why I now ride on the Tarot wheel without any true decisions until a path Truly shines forth.

I am in a strange reality, but I am alive,
I shall be whole once more

Love and be whole to you and the krazy gang and take care b.t.w on your travels to put the world to right if you're going up north .

 

mind you, I let my heart rule, I fall in love, and usually fear going any further and try not to go further. . I can't explain. I won't here.

Thought for today... ' A fool passes freely through all realms, but 1 fool keeps going back to square one through fear alone '. A never ending circle until a puzzle is solved in ones own life.

 

hi there

once the clear view comes in to play
within the cycle you can end that return
yet maybe only to touch upon the wisdom
you gain with in each card you turn
the way forward will always
be waiting for you.

see what you need to change to
end a pattern you feel safe under.
its a chance but thats life
and your readings will follow
with many answers that you feared
to understand before.
yourself and the world are still
waiting for this one change...

lovenpeace from saff

be calm be friend.

 

Thankyou Saffy ,

I have read and tried to think, but when I do it hurts.

Not much is clear to me anymore.
Thoughts are sometimes a day or few behind and catch up all the time but still in the past.
I think what I need is a break, a holiday for a couple of days like a couple of years ago. Then maybe I can once again let my thoughts catch up and try to sort out my own problems and life, or at least try to find that illusive clear path.
I can't see for looking,
I do fear,
I fear letting my thoughts catch up and having to think about things.

But I know it has to be done before I can leave the dreamstone.
I don't know when I'll do it all or how to gather my thoughts.

But I know my thoughts and actions are chaotic in the mean time which isn't helping any.

I suppose I'm trying to do 100 things at once to stop myself thinking about myself and my life. But realise I'm spreading myself out too far too much and can't usually keep up because I am so backed up.

I will try to mentally calm,
maybe I will see clearly once more,
but it has been a while since I did.

Its even been ages since I sat on my bed and even read a book. Or written any poetry or done anything creative. But even then the poetry will be depressing, although it could help me release some as it has done in the past.

Oh well. I don't know when or how, but I will try bit by but to let my thoughts settle and catch up. Then maybe I will be able to also work out what REALLY needs changing in my life, and maybe how etc.

Much Peace , and to all .

 

Nothing wise today lol...

Thoughts though,

Many MANY hugs to all whom I love and know

( Don't let that fool you all though, I'm still not better lol, but just felt a need to send out hugs where needed and welcomed lol ).

 

Still bl**dy hot !! Have to go again .

 

Spinning around in the sun,
as a child having fun?
Or a broken rebel going insane?