Sleeping is the closest you will get to heaven. Sometimes i tell myself i need to start thinking more positive, but then i would be masking out my true feelings...i cant do that now can i?
Heaven is what you think it is. If your heaven is to be in a big field, with a nice bong living with nature, then so be it. If its cruising down the road with your friends talking and laughing, then when you die thats gonna happen.