would you really want things to always be at a medium? that would be life without passion and how dull that would be.....you gotta learn and love
Polarization.... personally I wish I could do alot of things I can't because I have not figured out how to focus on myself so selfishly as to block out society. I am working on it now though. Perhaps once I can do that I will help you realize this goal of mediocrity, of a level float.
i love it when things are good, life is wonderful. but when things are bad i feel like dying...the only thing that keeps me going is knowing things will be good again someday probably...thats pretty messed up isnt it? or is it normal to feel that way?
Gandhi had plans to fast tell he died of starvation while in prison as a very old man in order to find some sort of peace for himself(and outside of himself, which was the same to him eh). People all over the world knew he was dying and in agony, and all manner of people reached out for the change he wanted, yet it still took something like 20-30 days for the government to carry out his wish and somehow he survived. So in a world where that kind of stuff is commonplace....
It's completly normal. it's life, sweetie- if you ever stop to feel that way...you're not really living. so live it up and take comfort in your happiness and LEARN (though it's not easy)- to take comfort in your sorrows... we are born into this life and things that make us FEEL, make us know, that we are ALIVE!
Just keep things in perspective, i actually got killed once and it wasnt that bad. The only thing you cant just let slide is someone you love dieing before their time, and even that can be lived through. And i doubt its near that bad. These things make you stronger, just make sure that you become stonger and not more numb.
All experiences in life, good or bad, have value. They all have their purpose. You can learn from them. The bad times make you appreciate the good times more. And I've found that the bad times are necessary to get me to the good times in my life. Sometimes bad things happen so that good things can. For example...I think back to past relationship break-ups and at the time it seemed so horrible. But if I had never broken up with anyone I would never have been led to where I am now with the wonderful Love that I have. Its all part of the beautiful dance of life. I value the good and the bad times in my life.