What would you do if you suddenly became a freak?

hey, i was looking at some old pics of me. they were taken when i was in high school. i only weighed 182 when i was a junior. and i am over 6 foot tall. anyway, i was skinny compared to how i look now. and look pretty sharp in the pics. i'm pretty close to 600 pounds now. it's not so easy for me to get around. but i am doing it. even going outside now. and i will lose most of this weight. so i started thinking about how i was a jock in school, and now alot of people must think i am a freak. it's not so easy to know that. but it's the truth. so i will live with it, and move on.

but what would you do if you suddenly lost your looks, and became a freak in most people's eyes? or had to use a walker to get around (when you are still in your twenties), and couldn't go bowling anymore. or even shoot a few hoops in your own driveway. would it drive you insane? or would you try and hide away from the world, or maybe even decide to kill yourself? or could you learn to make the best of it, and just live each day as it comes? maybe spend all your free time on the computer? lol. so what would you do?

 

um start eating healthy and work out??

 

I don't know really...I suppose I would have to come to terms with the "new me" and learn to love myself. Or, if I'm not happy with myself, I would look to change and improve.

 

yeah, that's what i am doing. but it will take many months before i start to feel more normal again.

 

i would "freak out"

 

changing is better. if you can do it. and just improve what you can. but what about people that can't help how they look? like people badly scarred by fire and disease? man, that has to be really rough. they have to learn to live with it.

 

lol. how so? can you give me an example? lol.

 

most people are freaks in one way or another ........ they just hide it well

 

Well, I've been a freak for most of my life. When I was 9 years old, I went from 3'9'' to 4'11'' and 60 pounds to 180, all in less than three months.

My mother took me to specialist after specialist, doctor after doctor, and every one of them said that I was just overeating. You don't triple your weight in 3 months from overeating.

And it's never got any better. I'm now 5'9'' (I'm so glad that I'm not any taller than this!) and 300+ pounds. It's really difficult to lose weight even with diet and exercise (I was really active in high school. I was a cheerleader.)

I've come to terms with it, though. I just tend to tell myself that I am too much personality and too much heart to fit in a normal body. I have to be big physically because every other aspect of me is larger than life.

Sometimes, though, it's not easy loving myself. When others look at you like you're something that just fell out of a dog's bottom, you almost start to see it their way.

 

People are freaks in their own eyes and get off by making you feel bad. (Don't let them.)

 

why don't you post some pics of yourself.

 

I already am a freak!!

 

Before I started on Psych Meds, I weighed about 160 Pounds. Then seems somehow real quick, I was and am double that now. 5'10" and 300+ Pounds. After I hit 300 Doctor Checked my Thyroid and it is underactive so now take Thyroid medication only have not still been below 300 Lbs in years.

I have had to develop an entire new way of living with being 300+ Pounds. Some restruarnts that have only booths and no tables I can not dine in at. I found I could no longer just walk into a clothing store and by clothes off the rack. I am afraid too to others homes and sit on the furnature, out of fear of breaking it. When I do dine in at a resturant, I have to ascess the chairs, and the tables being back to back chairs dont work, an aisle chair can block the aisle being out too far from the table into the aisle, and even if seated and prepare to eat, it's hard for me to enjoy my food as People stare with evil eyes like I should he ordering a piece of lettuce and a celery stalk and wash it down with a Diet beverage.

Seems Everything I once knew as life changed when I became "morbily obese". Everything. Feel like I am a prisioner of this hunk of flesh and fat I carry around with me.

Children stare and point, some teens laugh, I have broken 3 computer chairs so far this year, and am just unhappy with my weight. I am trying to look into gastric bypass surgery, and do something or at least try. I never imagined myself thirtysomething not able to sit in a lawn chair. It is very depressing to me. I can only attempt to cope with this
Peace-
Rx

 

what i do now take too many drugs and sit on the computer too much... i am very much a freak in my own way...

 

i would just eat healthy man, and learn about health and whatnot..reading an amazing book right now called natural health and healing by andrew weil who is a very cool dude, probably worth looking into...eating right does not require ahuge sacrafice taste wise or anything, it really doesnt, it just takes a little bit of knowledge and common sense....just noticed you mentioned surgery, that should definatley be your last option in any case says andrew weil, best medecine is prevention and using the bodies massive but simple potential for healing itself if it has a responsible owner that almost all conventional doctors ignore....

its also shown that people who just dont eat as much, live longer. so if your worried about vitamins or nutrients or anything, undernutrition has actually proven to be healthier, but obviously an unpopular concept in our society... start walking and drinking a lot of water, just walk and think and walk, walking is very healing and pleasent and a very simple form of excercise that gets your cardiovascular system working and burning all that junk in you, movement is good. maybe look into fasting, fasting rocks, its like getting high sordove, denying your body food, and veeery healthy at the same time, it gives your body energy to feed on itself for once and eat away all those dead cells and those toxic cells that have built up over time that youve breathed in through the air and ate in your food and in your water. ive seen a fasting tea at the health food store that is supposed to promote weight loss.

 

I would not hide from shit..fuck people..

 

ive always been thin. so i dont know what it's like being fat. but i know what it's like to hide from people coz of something about yourself that you don't want them to see. i do for different reasons of my own, one major physical thing and also i dont always want people to get freaked out by things i say....

but ive always been a freak

rather be weird than boring. normal people suck shit. they're just a waste of space really. hmmm something has to be done. someone has to do something.....