Re:parachuting To All From Susan

DEAR RAPUNZEL AND EVERYBODY ELSE,
I GUESS I SHOULD HAVE FIGURED THAT WOULD COME BACK TO BITE ME IN MY ASS
i POSTED THAT THREAD FOR A FRIEND OF OURS, WHO IS NOT A MEMBER, BUT HE WAS READING THE POSTS AND WANTED TO KNOW WHAT PARACHUTING WAS, SO I ASKED. DAMN, I GET PISS TESTED AT LEAST ONCE A WEEK, AND WHEN I WAS USEING, I USED HEROIN, NOT PILLS. SOME PEOPLE ON HERE SAY OC'S AND DOPE ARE THE SAME, BUT I NEVER GOT INTO PILLS. MY "SOB STORY" AS YOU PUT IT, IS ALL VERY MUCH TRUE. YA KNOW IT'S HARD ENOUGH DEALING WITH THE SYSTEM AND HAVING THEM THINK EVERYTHING COMING OUT OF YOUR MOUTH IS BULLSHIT, LET ALONE COMING TO A SITE, LOOKING FOR SOME SUPPORT AND GETTING ACCUSED OF THE SAME SHIT. I WENT THROUGH HELL TO OVERCOME DRUGS AND I AM CLEAN AND WILL REMAIN CLEAN, AND I AM DAMN PROUD OF MYSELF FOR IT.
SUSAN

 

Ok And To Those Who Did Not Bash Me...thank You For Your Support And Advice. For Those Who Don't Even Know What I'm Talking About...nevermind!!!

 

I feel really sorry for you. I can't imagine going through what you are going through AND having to battle heroin addiction to get your daughter back. I don't think anyone understands how bad you prolly wanted to do it to ease the pain of losing your daughter.

Asking about pills is irrelevant to your situation and people just like to pick others apart to make themselves feel better. So what if you asked? I have seen people go through withdrawl before and I don't blame them at ALL for turning to pills, every once and a while to help out. No one understands that craving unless they've been there themslelves.

Even though I don't know you, my instincts would say that a heroin addict isn't in a position to be a mom. But the thing is, I don't know you, nor does anyone else here and no one can say that you were ever neglectful. The WAY they took your daughter is horrifying. I'm so sorry about that.

I really really hope you go through with all of your future programs to keep yourself clean. I'm not surprised you didn't complete the first few treatments. I don;t think anything bad about that. I have seen friends of mine really try to stop, and it took a few times, checking themselves in to rehab places to get clean.

It sounds like you have been clean for a while, maybe popped a pill or two in times of great need, but you are on the right track and you have every right to be proud of yourself. Good luck, and I hope you get to hug your little girl soon!

 

Thanks