I am going to kill myself.

how would you know yungun? youve only been attempting to think for yourself for 3 years tops, and this is the decision you come to? I dont care if you kill yourself, trust me, but you are an attention whore or you woulda done it with out telling us.

 

If you're that depressed, see a doctor. That'll get you plenty of attention. Or you could dye your eyebrows pink, pierce your armpit, run around naked, call a politically important person a dumb ass at a public conference-y thing.

If it's all about attention, consider this: if you die, you will get absolutely no attention. Though you technically will, you won't get to bask in the glow of it.

Oh, and another suggestion... Have you considered POSITIVE attention? Get a job and donate all of your money to homeless shelters. Tutor underpriveledged kids. Chain yourself to a tree to save it (that's positive and negative!).

 

Hehehehehehe.

 

people that tell other people they want to kill themselves, don wanna kill themselves. people that truly wanna die simply kill themselves. lizard is a crybaby attention grabber and the world would be better off without him. I wish he was serious.

 

Yeah, I know what you mean. When I was in school, so many people would be like "I'm going to kill myself! Look, see, I scratched myself with this toothpick. I'M SUICIDAL!!" and everyone would be all over them, they'd get weeks off school, etc. Pisses me off beyond belief--good to see that someone else thinks the same way.

 

people should fuck more.

 

Your going to kill yourself because you are depressed, and you have no fear of hell because no one has proved that it really exists? Well, I have a few questions to ask you. What does it mean to exist? Can you prove that you really exist? Do you believe in God? What is good and what is evil? It has been my experience that when I feel depression sinking in, the best thing to do is to seek out the wisdom and knowledge that will allow you to overcome these emotions.

As for the meaning of life, I have no answer. But I'll promise you this much; as long as I'm alive I will never stop searching for meaning

 

Definately. Once a week minimum. People would be too happy to worry about anything else. Hehe

I'm really loving your simple (but inarguably true) statements, by the way.

 

i think they should be dragged from their abodes daily and forced to cluster fornicate with random strangers..........maby they wont bitch so much then

 

Look pretend I am just a soul talking.

You said -

I have withdrawn from all my friends

yet that you have not received a call in a year and half.
? That is what you wanted. Maybe you wanted to isolate yourself from a painful time. Now too much time has gone by.
All I can say to that is jump back into the game of life. When you push people away your digging a hole to feel even more alone and "your" creating the feelings even more to want to exit stage left.
Sure have alone time and love yourself, but they need you just as much. You dont know this becuase you pushed everyone so far. Your vision is blurred. Find some balance. Smile and watch a person smile back. Even if you dont feel like it. You may be surpised at how it makes you want to hold on to see what else there is. What you get is what you give. Jump back in. Your needed.
Peace

 

yes and when a schedule is established, I will demand it be doubled in freaquency!!!!!!!!

 

whats the point of telling a bunch of strangers in the first place? we won't know if you do. seems pointless and random to come here.

 

for the record, I have decided not to kill myself.

 

you're a teenager, teenagers are designed to feel shitty and hate their lives and everything. Once you really think about it you don't want to kill yourself, if you did you would have done so already and you wouldn't be on some random board discussing it. Make something of yourself, and be grateful that you have what you have when so many people don't. A child dies from extreme poverty every 3 seconds, can you imagine how their families would feel if they knew you were throwing away a perfectly good life?

 

Everyone goes through these same feelings at one time or another in their life. When I was a young teen, I had these same thoughts. My poetry was morbid, the clothes I wore were black like mouring cloths. I sang and played deppressing music on my guitar.
It's a phaze your going through. Just ride the wave sweetie and you'll be ok. Sometimes life is like a bad camping trip. But things change and people grow, and the camping trip will be over soon and you will see the sun shine again.
At 15 you don't know enough about life to end your's. Who knows you may end up with the most wonderful grown up life any one has ever had. And BTW if you belive in Karma, if you kill yourself you just have to come right back here and do it over again.
You made this bargan on the other side before you intered the womb. You made promises to come here and help, learn and contribute. These promises are stronger then time. You can end this life, but you'll just have to do it again.
At 15 you don't have the experience to know what life is about yet.Instead of feeling sorry for yourself maybe you need to go out and do something nice for someone else. Maybe that will get your mind off yourself and help someone who wants to live. DO something worthy and live.

 

I've wanted to kill myself for 5 years, living in depressed monotany is almost like being dead as is. I tried doin things to change up my life... now i feel like i'm dragging into middle age... and i'm only 19!!! But i feel it. WTF? I want something to happen or to get the idea of what i should do. I'm buyin a motorcycle. Want me to pick you up? You got a good hook-up? I do. here in my hometown. I want anything to give me a purpose.

 

i have gone thru and come out of deppression( it started when i was 15) i did what your doing, i isolated myself from other human beings , i felt like i was in a dark tunnel every day, i felt hopeless and answer less ... having come out and "seen the light" what helped me out was this:thinking of my dark time as a learning experience,reading books by carlos castaneda, i quit school and tuned into my own personal hell, i found my own personal interests and beleifs thru reading and thinking,i felt pain, darkness lonliness,but somehow within myself i found the will 2 fight 2 feel real pain, experiencing deppression is a deeper reality and to me, can be used like a tool, 2 me it is trying 2 tell you something about your life/self.......my advice is: find the will 2 fight! 2 breathe! Also something extremeley helpful is falling in love,it pulls you out of yourself....i wish 4 you 2 utilize this feeling!

 

my advice, read the book The Giver by Lois Lowry

 

why are you people still paying this person attention.

 

depression sucks. i was depressed too (another sob story), but then i got so pissed off at being depressed that i stood up and decided to change things. i left the group of friends i was with (they were the main cause of depression)...i found new friends and my life is totally awesome now. it was really hard to pull away from the people i had been friends with, but it was worth it. if i hadn't, i would still be where you are now. so get up and change stuff! cause a scene...