I am going to kill myself.

I think that maybe you need to stop thinking about what you want and consider, oh, say your family for one. You're 15, still a kid, and technically, you're still one until you're 18. Do you think that your parents decided "Hmmm, let's have a baby! Then we can let it have a miserable life!"? You're here for a reason, and at least two people (well, possibly one, depending on your family situation) want you on this earth.

You seem so negative. It seems to me that you're a lot like so many of the people that've called the teen depression hotline where I volunteer--you get stuck on the negative, and you get so caught up in it, you don't want to, or just plain CAN'T, imagine there being anything positive out there. Have you considered waking up one day and saying "I'm not worthless, I can make friends, and I deserve to be alive"? Do it, and for the rest of the day, KEEP THAT ATTITUDE. People pick up on what you want, and if they feel that you don't want friends (which is how your attitude seems), they won't talk to you. Take the initiative to walk up to someone who seems similar to you and strike up a conversation. Once you get past that day, try doing it for two days, then three, then a week. I can promise you that you will feel at least 73.5% better.

Or, if you refuse to do any of that, make yourself a deal. Live until you're an adult--yes, 18. In those years, think of all that could happen. When you get there, there's a tremendous chance that you will end up wondering why on earth you'd even considered suicide to begin with.

 

well my point ....were all gonna die ....no need to kill yerself

 

It may not seem difficult to go talk to somebody on a random subject, but it is.

 

oh geeez....

 

I can't stop thinking about "I am.". It is the shortest complete sentance in the english language.

 

So, you're just overly pessimistic. Or want sympathy? I'm not sure, but you're frustrating me with your constant negativity, even when people suggest things.

 

suicide is a viable solution to many problems. Is it right for yours? If you think so ask your mom. Will she agree?

 

Yes, I guess I am pessimistic. I don't want sympathy I want attention, but they are the same thing in some cases. You used sympathy in attentions place.

 

My problem is I want to kill myself but it is difficult to explain to people why. No way would I ask my mother.

 

well make it a spectacular death, I want to see it on the news.

 

I assume its becasue you love her and dont want her to feel pain. I know what you mean. But if you cant talk to her about it, its prolly the wrong decision.

 

i wonder if there is still the church of euthinasia

 

I read a website on interesting ways to kill yourself once.

 

Hey dude,
don't kill yourself because i heard of a boy that killed himself somewhere near me becase he hated his life because he was pushed at school to much, but i heard a few weeks went by, his GCSE results came in and he got 3a's and 4b's, if he had stayed alive a bit longer he might not of had to of killed himself.

 

I haven't decided when to do it. It would not be soon though, it will be when something bad happens.

 

Its like I don't want to kill myself but I am living my life depressed and nobody understands.

 

everyone understands , dumbass. you think you are the only depressed 15 year old? If you kill yourself the story stops there. I guarantee it will get better in the next chapter.

 

Not everyone, not everyone....

 

if you think it will get any easyer than it is now ........generaly it just about doubeled every year in yuckieness for the last 30 years since i was 15..... with the exception of a few brief moments .....so so sit back and enjoy the ride .....or at least be amused by not enjoying the ride

 

Yeah, not to be insensitive, but suck it up.

haha or you know, you could put on some emo, grab some kleenex and have a good cry.