I'm becoming bulimic....help?

I've been becoming more and more obsessed with my weight, and lately I've been having urges to eat things like entire cakes, gallons of ice cream, etc, then shortly afterward I feel guilty and fat and make myself puke it all up.
I'm really sick of myself, its always something, I went from alcohol, quit that, went to drugs, quit that, and now I'm onto food I guess. I am having a really hard time controlling myself it seems, and I'd like to somehow put an end to these destructive behaviors. I know they're destructive, and even when I'm in the store buying something, I tell myself I will NOT end up throwing it up, only to get home, eat the entire thing, and make myself puke. It's like there are 2 different people or something. Anyhow, if anyone has any advice I'd appreciate it, I just don't seem to be able to do it on my own.

 

PLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEZE go get some help, hun. This isn't something you can fix on your own. HOw long has this been going on?

YOu need to talk to someone that can help you, a mentor, a parent, a guidence counselor, a therapist, a doctor...SOMEONE. This isn't something to take lightly.

I was anorexic for almost a year and ended up in the hospital...I was sick....and so are you. Please do this for your health and for yourself.

 

Hunny this is a dangerous disease... I went back and forth between anoerexia and bulimia for almost 5 years... its so bad... it destroys your health and your self esteem and mental heaaalth... please get help.

 

It hasn't been happening that long, maybe 2 months, 1 or twice a week. But recently I can feel myself getting worse, its happening more frequently and I'd like to stop it before it becomes any worse. Thanks for the help. I feel especially akward about it being a guy, but I guess admitting hte problem is the 1st step as they say. How do you stop thinking about food? I find that I think about food more than just about anything else, its like I never want to stop eating.

 

Dont feel wierd.. becasue your a guy.. I was hospitalized twice for eating disorders and one time there were more guys than girls in the hospital with eating disorders adn then the time after that there was the same amount of guys as girls... can you talk to a parent or someone about this and have htem help you find a doctor to talk to about it? if not your general doctor can help... but please get help.. its still early... if its only been a few months... the longer you have htem the harder it is and less likely that you will recover. If you need anyone to talk to Im always here y ou can pm me if you woudl like. ... as for the how to stop thinking about food im not really sure... usually problems with eating have to do wtih other emotional issues and the food problems wont go away until you deal with the emotional issues.

 

This is true...I had used food as a method of controlling SOMETHING in my life...because at the time my life was spiraling out of control...and food was the only thing I could really regulate putting in my body.

 

Get help darling. Trust me. I've suffered from both Anorexia and Bulemia since I was 9 years old. You need a lot of help and support to muddle through, it's not always easy, but the earlier you seek help, the better.


Good luck to you...and don't feel "odd" about this just because you are a male. Eating disorders can affect anyone.

 

Hey, dude. I totally understand where you're coming from with the bulimia thing. Anyway, I was bulimic from the age of 9 (began on my 9th birthday... how touching) until about March 2004 (when it ended, I was purging up to 15 times a day and my 5'6" self was a mere 85 pounds), and I can tell you how hellish it is, but I know you don't want to hear it. Something inside of you says that you can stop whenever you want, but something else says that you're already gone, but, man, you don't have to listen to either of them. I have a few suggestions for you, all of which I pretty much came up with for myself, because I was determined to avoid being hospitalized again.

1) As some others said, look at your emotions before you start to eat. Why are you so upset that you're trying to drown your inner-self in food? Write your feelings down so that you have something to look at. Think of other things that could make them better and then think about how much healthier your alternative solutions are.
2) Don't buy food that you don't need. Make a food budget for the week, and don't buy anything that could be binged on. If you really want that ice cream, you can always buy a small amount (think Ben and Jerry's instead of Breyers), or even go to an ice cream parlor for it.
3) Surround yourself with people. I always found myself less likely to binge and more likely to forget about my problems when I had friends around. Hell, you could even go to the mall if you don't want to talk to anyone.
4) Rewards! Calculate the money you spend on binge food each week (for me, it could be my entire paycheck and then some). Each time a week passes that you don't b/p, take the money (if it's a small-ish amount... if it's a large amount, save half in a savings account or something) and reward yourself. Buy music, save for a festival ticket, buy that really cool, but still obnoxiously over-priced book that you saw at the store.

Blah, okay, so that sounds like a self help book, but it really did help me tons. If helping yourself doesn't work, march your butt to a doctor and say, "I'm developing bulimia." Give them the facts, and if they don't listen, see someone else.

Oh, and always remember... Anyone can suffer and everyone deserves help.

 

i would like to shake your hand

 

I was on the verge of becoming bulemic, however if you work out, I guarantee you that after a month, you won't even worry about what is bothering you to puke yourself out. Are you very self-consicious? It seems to show.

When you puke your food out, you decrease your metabolism. You want to maintain a constant eating pattern, perhaps eat 6 small meals to burn your food more efficiently.

Trust me. Don't do things the unhealthy way.

 

I used to have an eating disorder...until my teeth started rotting away. be careful.

 

try to find to yourself. to listen to your emotions and your heart. try a sport or yoga or something to identificate with your body. i know it is hard. but as long, as you don`t you will do worse and worse things to your body.
remember who you were, before you started to treat yourself so bad (even with alkohol or drugs).
meet people, go out and find a new sense of your life! you are important and beautiful!

 

Thanks for the encouragement and words of advice, especially Sitting Zen, some very helpful things in there. Working out is not my problem, in fact that is where alot of the problems started from. I am involved in a sport where burning 6-7K calories a day is not uncommon, but I got to the point where I was doing it just to eat. 5-6-7 hours a day, just thinking about what I would eat when it was over. In the end I wound up skinny to the point of sick, though I was eating a ton. It's just a cycle a need to break.

 

Ah, over-exercising. I've been down that road, too. Climbing for 4 hours at a time, skating up to 50 miles a day, 1000 situps.... It always seemed that I would think I was fine after I conquered one inappropriate behavior--that is, until another one took its place.

Glad I could be of some assistance, by the way. I hate seeing people suffer from eating disorders, especially with how much the media downplays everything but anorexia. I hope you're better soon.

 

I don't know if I can offer any advice, besides simply giving some solidarity. Especially since I know that when I'm going that direction, there's NOTHING that anyone could say to stop me (this concept, by the by, abetting the psychological nature and root of the problem -it's not you, it's your head).

So, I'll just let you know; all the fucked up and uncontrollable urges, bizarre emotional eating habits, etc, that nobody else seems to conceive or consider? I know. I know I know I know.

Others here do, too. We empathize. We know. You're not the only one, you shouldn't be ashamed guilty about what you're struggling with.

I'm not rereading this message and due to the hour of it's creation and my current state of mind, I'm guessing it's fundamentally confusing and idiotic. But don't mistrust me because this sounds dumb. I'm just tired. Capiche?