First time in a forum

So I just joined yesterday and I have already met quite a few people already. It is nice talking to people on here. I am usually not this social which is why I haven't really been into any social media. But right now in my life I am trying to discover who I really am and so I have started to leave my comfort zone and push my limits.

I suffer from anxiety and depression, depression since I was very young and the anxiety came later. At one point I hadn't left my house for 2 months. When I finally ventured out, I always needed someone with me, who could stay near me or I would have a panic attack. I have been fighting it the best I can. Last year, I took a long distance, solo, car trip. I had to stop a few times along the way to calm down but I eventually made it to my destination and then back home. Since then it has gotten easier for me to go places on my own and driving on major highways has gotten a lot easier. Before the anxiety, I always thought of myself as a strong woman, I am not so sure anymore but I am trying to be.

I know this may seem like a lot for an introduction post but I really want this to be a space where I can be completely honest and lay myself bare. I think I really need to. So I hope everyone can accept my brutal honesty and my, possibly excessive, oversharing.

I have many, many interests and hobbies. Gardening, sewing, woodworking, leather crafting, archery, hiking, cooking, home repair, reading, writing, designing things (all kind of things from houses to fashion). There is so much more. I love learning new things and researching, sometimes I even enjoy figuring out statistic probabilities just to prove a point.

I tend to collect things but everyone assures me that I haven't hit hoarder status yet. I still think it is something that I need to get a handle on now. Some of my larger collections are books, wood and metal boxes mostly ranging in size from a small trinket box to a large jewelry box, craft supplies, crystals, swords and other assorted weaponry.

I have a lot about myself that I want to change but I am looking at it from a new prospective now. Before, I think I wanted to alter myself to become better but now I feel like all I really need to do is strip off all the excess that has been weighing me down and just expose my essential self, who I really am inside without all the labels, judgments, stigmas and expectations of the people around me and the world at large, because the real me is good enough.

I am an atheists. I am open minded. I am honest but I try not to hurt people with it. I try my best to give helpful advice. I try not to judge people. I will share everything about myself except my identity, so please don't ask. I like the anonymity that I can find here, somehow it allows me to feel less judged.

Hopefully I can find a safe and welcoming home here, with generous people willing to help me on my journey of self discovery and be helpful to them in return. If you have gotten this far, thanks for reading and Hello, this is me!

 

Welcome to the Hip Forums
Enjoy your stay

I own movie memorabilia swords

Excalibur
Ninja
Samurai
Highlander

 

Welcome Moon Goddess! I to like to cook and collect weaponry

What is your culinary specialty??

 

Hello.

 

I own real swords...

 

Welcome! I just joined too

 

What kind Ty?

 

Viking swords

 

How old?

 

New ish... They are reproductions, but working swords, not display swords.


Anyways... We are stealing this lady's thread.

welcome to Hip.

 

do you eat the weaponry after you cook it?

 

Only if its... ahem... swordfish

(That was weak I know)

 

I also do swords, but for home protection. These guys sit by my front door.

 

Also, Sir Richard Lionheart, Toledo Steel.

 

I knew I liked you. Behind my door...

 

I've got another 2 samurai swords under our bed. ones mine, one is hers

 

That's beautiful

 

Very nice and honest introductory post.

 

Me and the Mrs have one each of an implement under our bed too. Baseball bats

 

I started with a hockey stick. I thought swords would be more romantic. Hehe.