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I was thinking about what I was talking about last night with some people, about mentally ill people making serious charges against the mental health workers and other people in their life. Any charge of a serious crime, of abuse or of sexual abuse should always be taken very seriously and investigated. It doesn't matter if the person is not credible, it doesn't matter if they've lost complete touch with reality at that point, it doesn't matter if they'd make a good witness during a trial if it came to that. They made a charge of a serious crime or abuse. And it should automatically trigger a thorough investigation even if the rest of what they say is ridiculous, or even impossible.

Like for example is they say my Martians friends told me that when I was sedated for my surgery yesterday, the doctor sexually assaulted me. Or the people in my group home are sexually assaulting me, but then they erase my memory. And they magically make all the evidence disappear too. It doesn't matter how ridiculous all of that sounds, or even if it obviously is. They claimed someone or some people sexually assaulted them. And it should be thoroughly investigated as soon as they make that charge. Whatever their reasons are, even if they reasons are dishonest or false. Or I was thinking, maybe they are too afraid to tell the truth. The people at their group home or their surgeon threatened them. It should be taken seriously what they said, that they are claiming abuse and assault. But it should automatically trigger a thorough investigation. And if it's false, that will come out in the investigation anyways of course.

I told my therapist just now I want this part of my claim to my case now. And I want change made in Michigan law and mental health policy too. Plus maybe they should consider this in other states and in other countries too.

Like I've said, I know now I've been the victim of deliberate, well-planned abuse, right from my childhood. And seems like it was all some kind of psychological experiment too, strange as that sounds. It was designed early on to make me think less of myself, and to think I wasn't entitled to certain things in life. I remember that one psychiatrist, who I first started seeing in the Summer of 1986. He did not like me, and he did not like Americans in general. He thought we had life way too easy. He was from South America. And he made clear early on that I should really see what life was like in his country. Even when I mother told him I was a good person and therefore worth saving, he'd still look over at me with disgust. He knew I didn't do bad things. But he also thought I was selfish and enjoyed life too much. And this did get me to thinking. I really never knew extreme pain, or even extreme hardship. I really didn't even know what it was like to experience. But that doesn't make me a bad person. There's no need for me to know what extreme pain and hardship are like. It doesn't really build character. And I eventually realized it's better I didn't know and never know. And people even recently have told me I should live and work like most Americans. Work long hours for little pay, and have little, or really absolutely no time, for rest of leisure. But I was reading in the UN's Universal Declaration of Human Rights, first in 1988 and then rereading for many years later. Everyone has a fundamental right to rest and leisure. We don't have to feel embarrassed to expect it or ask for it from anyone. But that theme played out for many years after I saw that doctor. That I should always be engaged in some activity. Or else at the least I should live in constant fear of pain and hardship in a mental hospital, people seemed to think. Because everyone is expected to work and work hard. And like Charles Dickens A Christmas Carol, when the state provides things for free, like the workhouses in his novel, it can never be good. It must be rather horrible actually. There were also themes in my life of justice and fairness and abuse, and testing the limits of each. Denying me access to restrooms, as a clever form of abuse and clever denial of a basic right. Because it was one people and onlookers would never think of, again. And trying to take away my car, thus endangering my independence, my ability to care for myself, my very life and safety. Just because they could, I was told. Even though I never heard of that happening. A good driver with good insurance losing their license. I was always told once you had a license, it was almost impossible to take it away. But not so fast, people started telling me. And then just this year, I find out most people in Detroit don't even have insurance. We can't solve all the rapes and murders here. And the police and first responders wasted their time following me around and harassing me, and doing that. And destroying me peace of mind too. My therapist seems to indicate that was no accident. When all I wanted was to try the flaming cheese for the first time in a restaurant, or go a cheap gourmet restaurant and try their beef Wellington some day. Or just a walk in the park or to collect sports cards I liked. Things that were cheap, things that were innocent, things that I thought no one would be able to deny me ever. And then as if to respond to that notion. And I now realize as I said, that was what they were trying to do. They one by one, systematically took all those things away from me. Claiming either I wasn't entitled to them, I didn't deserve them, it was silly to ask for them or there were more important matters at hand at the time. Which as I have explained, was usually just some new form of clever abuse I now realize.

And now I am damaged for life, my lifespan is forever shortened, the course of my life forever altered. And none of that can be undone now. It has all long passed that point of no return. If I at least knew that it could be avoided in the past. But I wasn't entitled to that information even. And like I said, I am going to have all those people who did that to me. Who made me take those stupid medications a person like me with Cerebral Palsy isn't even supposed to to take to begin with. All of those people. The Detroit and Dearborn police, the Oak Park first responders, all my doctors and all the other people who took part in this. Lawyers who I reached out to included, if possible. I am going to have all of them held accountable for their actions. Legal action, misconduct in office or at least exposed. So people know, and this never happens to anyone ever again. And so people know they can't just get away with this, whoever they are. And that the Nuremberg defense is never an excuse. Not even if you'd be the only person in your department that would oppose it. Not even if you knew all that was going on. You knew it was illegal, you knew it as wrong, and that is enough. And all of those people are going to insure I have a good quality of life from now on. Especially now that my lifespan is forever limited. And as I said, I still think having my legal guardian spend one night in jail would be a good place to start. It will show everyone we mean business, and it will show them there are consequences for their actions. And my therapist seems to indicate that doing what I am doing will get a lot of people in trouble because I am exposing very wrong things that people didn't think would be exposed. Well, I think I speak on behalf of the rest of the public that I certain hope so, because that could only be a very good thing.

I was just going to point out. It is also very important that I always have things like a working computer, cell phones, and other lines of communication. And a working computer printer too. I still use the postal system, so that should always be in working order. And I use my printer for many other the purposes.

Because my PC, and at least one of my cell phones, seems to be loaded with malware. And my printer doesn't always work perfectly. Also, my printer takes HP 910 black cartridges. It doesn't take the XL version of those. If they stopped making them altogether, I'd have to get a whole new printer then.

I wanted to make clear if I haven't by now, I want all who harmed arrested and charged with whatever serious criminal charges that would apply. The endangered my life and safety. And as I've said, I found out later that hospital in Dearborn might have been guilty of the crime of mental torture in 1988 and 9. I am still confused by that, because I could tell at the time they didn't fear any legal consequences for their actions. So I didn't even try. I really don't know now though what would have happened if I tried. It still seems obvious a patient's rights complaint would have gone nowhere. Maybe like I said, that is the case for all mental patients in Michigan, they just don't know. But I do wonder about criminal charges even now, even thought the statute of limitations has run out for them of course. But the statute of limitations hasn't run out for everyone else. I know if I were to die of kidney failure, like that one doctor seemed to suggest I may have or be at risk for, even sovereign immunity wouldn't protect the government employees here. They put me in harm's way and endangered my life as soon as that car nonsense began. Driving someone to thoughts of suicide may not be illegal in itself. Suicide, and aiding and abetting a suicide, are a cloudy issue in the US I've heard. But reckless endangerment and mental torture aren't. Neither is misconduct in office of course. So I want all charged with all of those crimes now, if they apply here. And I still think it would be a good idea to have my guardian spend just one night in a jail cell. Like I was telling a lady associated with my case last Wednesday, he would serve as a good example for the rest. And it would ensure we'd never have problems like I've had with him or any of those other people.

Also, I don't think I ever mentioned this. But my doctors were giving me advice on how to deal with this situation, and deal with things like medication compliance. On the sly supposedly. I don't know what that was all about. But I know I don't need any advice on the sly. I've done absolutely nothing wrong. If anything, it is all of them that would be following advice on the sly. One of my doctors was the chosen ringleader for that for some reason. guess it might have been for some legitimate reason too, all of that. But again, I've done nothing wrong, absolutely nothing. And the only person who'd need protecting or that kind of advice would be all the people who abused me, who damaged me and who endangered my life. My doctors of course. Many police and paramedics. And that long list of other people. And as I said, I demand action be taken now. Now since as I've often said, the damage that's being done to me could be prevent right now if action is taken immediately. Especially if I have something that may be fatal. Action against of all those people, everywhere, right away as I said. So this never happens to anyone ever again.

Like I said, for years I wondered who would be capable of such extreme mental abuse like I was subjected to, and the horrible threats, starting before age 18 even I think, and whether the threats would ever come true. I really thought for a while maybe I wasn't even supposed to tell others of the abuse I receive. Not only did it include severe emotional abuse, but it seems to have involved the mental health services of Michigan. And also people like teachers, and doctors, and police and EMT's. But there was never any physical abuse I always noticed. Though the threats had to become more and more realistic because I was beginning to see thru them. But I wonder if there really was no physical abuse, because now I am damaged permanently. There's permanent nerve damage to my feet, and actually both hands my doctor now tells me. And neuropathy in all of them too, along with Type 2 Diabetes. Although that one doctor says I'm all over my diabetes. (I don't know about that though. The doctor who told me that I have neuropathy and nerve damage in both hands now also used to tell me my neuropathy is all gone too.) So that could be physical abuse. And it could be the answer to their constant quest to take all the simple pleasures away from me, for whatever reason they were doing that. Because if I lost my feet or lost use of my feet, there'd no longer be any walks in the park. And if I lost my hands too. I don't know what quality of life I'd have just spending the day getting around in a wheelchair. And without hands I probably wouldn't even be able to drive. And driving it what every is based on now. Not just my happiness and leisure, but my independence, my well-being, my medical consent and my safety. And then I don't know what I'd do. Plus this new form of abuse, fighting a hopeless battle trying to show people I know all about the deception now, and how I am denied all access to the legal system, even though that would never be justified even for the worst villain. And I'm certainly nothing like that anyways. But this final abuse, fighting a hopeless battle that will never end, will be successful. It will finally be successful because I'll never know when it's over. And so far no one has even had the decency to lie to me and tell me it is.