Where Do I Begin In Picking Up A Damaged Life?

Published by The Instinct in the blog the white binder cont. from old journal days. Views: 1311

first off,, i do not like bitching or complaining about my problems. i state the facts. what is. their is no, " it is what it is." their is only what is and what isnt. ignorance remains unblissful. ignorance does not know of bliss. many forget that ignorance means: does not know." i am no longer ignorant because of the knowledge i received in my death. i now can easily pick up on the ignorant and hot damn do they not like being found! i have come to the conclusion it takes a shift in focus how to internalize what happens properly. nothing is any one specific person's fault. blame happens a lot and all too frequently. i no longer blame. i put responsibility where it properly belongs so well now - the ones responsible think its blame when it is not.

i have made a lot of progress since my injury and death. i know its all god's doing. i can take no credit for what god does. i have more faith now than i ever had. i now fear not death but life. i cannot help but notice and take in the knowledge set before me about what earth really is. to cut it short, its unhealthy and poor quality of life.


can you state what "it" is in ever situation to give any merit to the infamous "it is what it is statement that translates to, " i dont care"? i can tell you that most do not know what "it" is. therefore, it isnt what it is, never was the way it was. most have been fooled into believing an illusion. its not real, therefore its much easier to forgive for me. forgiveness's purpose is so you can move on with your life. it does nothing for the other person. the other person needs t learn how to internalize things more productively. chances are they dont care anyway. now i feel like im rambling and its difficult typing 1 handed now.
Nov 14, 2015
  • Persia
    Persia Nov 20, 2015
    I think you got it. Self knowledge isn't rambling, but trying to explain personal truths to other people is hard as shit.
  • Terrapin2190
    Terrapin2190 Nov 26, 2015

    I view ignorance as "'knowingly' not knowing." Not knowing, itself, isn't a form of ignorance in my eyes. Not knowing... and refusing to further your own knowledge about any given subject at any given time is a form of ignorance. Though, I share my own personal definition, not defined by textbook/dictionary terms. Which could be a form of ignorance in itself! (mind blown)

     

    Now, I have never had a close call with death (such as yours), but I agree and have agreed for a long time now, that life is a lot harder and scarier than death. And that we live a poor quality of life here on this realm. But being able to look past it, or stay in a state of suspension until something good comes along and the ability to share that with others is what keeps me going.

     

    I've been finding that meditation helps a lot lately. There's no way to pinpoint exactly which areas of life it has an effect on, but I feel as though it's been helping me to clear my mind, slowly but surely washing myself of negative thoughts and energy. After all, you must meditate in order to figure out where to go next. Without a thought from somewhere, everything just sits in limbo.

     

    I also agree w Persia's comment.

  • The Instinct
    The Instinct Aug 13, 2016

    I view ignorance as "'knowingly' not knowing." Not knowing, itself, isn't a form of ignorance in my eyes. Not knowing... and refusing to further your own knowledge about any given subject at any given time is a form of ignorance. Though, I share my own personal definition, not defined by textbook/dictionary terms. Which could be a form of ignorance in itself! (mind blown)

     

    Now, I have never had a close call with death (such as yours), but I agree and have agreed for a long time now, that life is a lot harder and scarier than death. And that we live a poor quality of life here on this realm. But being able to look past it, or stay in a state of suspension until something good comes along and the ability to share that with others is what keeps me going.

     

    I've been finding that meditation helps a lot lately. There's no way to pinpoint exactly which areas of life it has an effect on, but I feel as though it's been helping me to clear my mind, slowly but surely washing myself of negative thoughts and energy. After all, you must meditate in order to figure out where to go next. Without a thought from somewhere, everything just sits in limbo.

     

    I also agree w Persia's comment.

    knowingly not knowing is willful ignorance. ;)

  • The Instinct
    The Instinct Aug 13, 2016

    death was better, remains better than this fake facade we call "reality" here. this is not real. how can it be? where is the evidence? just because something looks and feels real, doesnt make it so. if anything, and science is now beginning to prove this now that  life here on earth is like a passing, a death if you will. close to a very lucid dream.

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