Moving Forward

It's a phrase. Not sure how long it's been there ... like that ...

I never used it because I thought it never meant anything. It certainly is used more frequently than "looking backwards." Although, moving backwards is not restricted to the chessboard alone. I often feel as if the country for which I have pledged my allegiance is moving backwards.

I feel surrounded by hate. And the fear that if you go up against hate, you run the risk of losing it all...
Your job
Your home
Your credit

These days there are people who are pro-gun control who ask, "Is he dead yet?"

I'm sure I will have more to say about moving forward as time progresses.

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Time has progressed. I haven't quite moved forward. At work, I find I can share les and less. If I tell one person anything that is going on, I am left holding the bag to speak to others. And sometimes others contact me in droves. I am one person and they are an army.

And, I have been instructed, never show them you're weak.

Some days I feel angry. At least that is the emotion that is triggered. Actually, I am simply sad. There is not specific reason for things. Maybe life didn't turn out differently. Did I want to be committed to someone? I often wonder. I prefer doing my own thing when I want and how I want without offering an explanation to anyone.

And part of moving forward also means that I need to get/have my affairs in order. And that is something that I dread