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Also I now see thru the abuse that I was being subjected to for many years. Since a child even. It started at least by St. Scholastica grade school in Detroit in the 70s, and the sick moral lessons they often tried to teach me. Sick moral lessons involving abuse. Psychological abuse, abuse of handicapped person, abuse of an ugly or possibly deformed person, abuse of a gay person, abuse of a weak person. Abuse, or maybe negative reinforcement if that's what it was, was often deliberate and intended. Oakwood Hospital started or continued the idea that I should live in constant terror of some horrible fate in 1989 when I left and then Sinai-Grace hospital continued that 2004. Both robbing me of my peace of mind, both taking years of my life away from me and both almost ending in tragedy more than once. Really leaving me in a situation where I thought suicide would be the only way out one way or another because like that song said, after 1989 I was standing all alone it seemed, in every way. No one was there to help me in any way and many people I could tell by then were obviously taking part in it. I knew that early on, I just wasn't sure what exactly they were doing. And now I know, it was intentional and someone thought it was a good health practice, even thought it did what I just described to me. No more. I am going to expose that. Expose what they did and expose it if they ever do it again. If I am in a position, like I suspected by even 1988 ironically, where all my patient's rights complaints would just be ignored, or treated with contempt even, then I will just do it more. And expose it to the public. Expose it to the public along with evidence and proof it is happening if necessary. That is one of the reasons why I must never go to a group home or other place where I'd lose contact with the outside world and why I will never allow that. (Using whatever sick, misguided mental health tactic if that's what all of that was would never work on me now due to what is called the Hawthorne effect, I believe.) But I am still going to expose what they did to me in the past. For real accountability, to expose what they've done to others and to make sure it never happens again. And like I said, that car issue was part of it. Because that abuse and that teasing and taunting continued long after the actual threat was over. The threat of my needlessly losing car probably ended with that guard being shot in 2014. Because strangely there really was something like that actually going on at the same time just like I thought. And just like my psychiatrist and others were taunting me with and bringing it up and dropping it, usually when I least suspected it. And then that doctor who doesn't think certain groups should be driving brought it up a couple of years ago, making me think it was still going on. And something strange may still be going on with that and people saying something about my being too old to drive some day. It is. But like I said, I am going to watch for it and expose it, and expose how people did that to me in the past. So there is some real accountability here and they are never allowed to do that again.