More.

Like I said, my symptoms with my hands and feet are very weird now. For the past couple of weeks. All my doctors tell me everything is fine. Well actually some of them tell me I don't even have neuropathy. Some of them contradict each other, some contradict themselves. And I don't who's lying or what is wrong with me. And no one is helping in any way with all my new problems now they are minor, for now at least. But they seem to be changing. I need special shoes and special socks. I've begun wearing special compression gloves. I think I'll wear them to bed from now on along with the special sock the podiatrist. But I'm getting almost no help. And no one is helping me with the neuropathy in my hands because supposedly it doesn't exist, or hasn't been diagnosed. I just know my neurologist is totally silent about all of that now. He says I never had neuropathy or anything else to begin with. I need special care and special products. Things like that and maybe even therapy, if any would work, that I could start right now. Because I expect to live independently at home with my cat, driving always and always having full medical consent and control of my life that way. IAE I am going to see to it that everyone involved in all of that. Harming me in the past and harming me now and allowing to still take place are held accoutable for their actions. To the fullest extent of the law. Or exposed for what they did to the public, if nothing else. So they know what they did and what kind of people they are.

Speaking of driving, I was also thinking about that recently. I started thinking of that around 2004, when the subject came up in my life. Actually it started as a form of mental abuse I guess, in 1995 when people started telling me I looked to mentally disabled to them to be driving. And they wanted to take away my car even if I had a valid driver's license and a good record. (Which is ridiculous, I later found. Mentally disabled and mentally ill people have the right to drive in Michigan. They have all the rights everyone else does.) But I started thinking of the topic then and researching it too. It's far too easy to take licenses away from people in the US or to deny it to them. And I started seeing stories about that in the news around then. Taking the bus is definitely not a wonderful option for anyone in the US, and it's sad and wrong anyone would think it is. What horrible thing to say. To me or anyone, especially the way they it to me. Teasing and taunting me while my life and safety were in danger. I was also thinking about some of the reasons why a person perhaps shouldn't drive. In Michigan people with epilepsy can drive if their are seizure-free for a year. But should people like that even be driving at all, I thought. And people who are illiterate can drive in the US. I can read a paragraph-long road sign in a glance. And most signs are obvious what they mean by the symbols and words on them. But what about a sign that says "bridge out in three miles, take the second turn on the left"? That could be dangerous then, not being able to read. And there some people in Detroit who have no insurance, and maybe even no licenses, who are hard working and who are good drivers. But that isn't what the law says. Driving without insurance is felony in Michigan. And what if there were an accident even where you really weren't at fault? Who'd pay the for other driver's medical damages, since that's what that law is meant to cover? I never had those problems, I've always been a very good driver. But like my therapist said, my issue didn't involve that. It involved law enforcement who didn't agree with the law to begin with. All while allowing all of that to take place. I think we should address the right to drive in Michigan and the US. Who has the right to drive, what groups have the right to drive and how that issue is very different and important in the US. And any discussion of that would have to also include the existing laws and the issue of the police and how they view the law and selectively enforce it sometimes. That is never a good idea, and that invites the question of what if the law were enforced literally. In the ways I described above and with police who act unprofessionally and even illegally. How shall you hope for mercy rendering none, as Shakespeare said.