More Conclusions.

Just to make clear just as I've told my doctors, I will someday just stop signing those fake consent forms for my procedures. They are moronic and they are outrageous. And plus something should have been done by now. And then as anyone who knows me would know, I will just never sign them again. I think that's called passive resistance. Of course if it all ended, the fake forms, the secret guardianships and all the secrecy, I would stop then. But that creates a serious problem. How would I even know if it was over? Even if someone proved it to me, I would just have to assume they were lying and deceiving, only maybe being more cleaver about it this time. And what could someone do to win my trust? Some of the worst abuse I ever experienced was by kindhearted, very nice and decent people, who went out their way to earn my trust. Right before they really hurt me badly. Like that one nurse in that hospital in 1988 and 9. Of course I know normal people don't behave that way. Which is why I thought maybe that all never happened. But that shows how little all the people in my life can be trusted, how low their morals and common human decency is and how little they care about my welfare or life, or really anyone else's. On the other hand if I saw real change, in the laws of Michigan. If I saw people really held accountable for what they did to me, and held accountable for what they did to others after that I revealed. And if I saw people go out of their way to make sure the rest of my life I have a good quality of life and all the medical care I need, state of the art in fact, I probably would be persuaded a lot by that.

And also what they did to me has forever shorten my life and affect the quality of the end of my life. I will need real options then like the right to die and even assisted suicide if it becomes necessary. And I told them if any was to object then, my response and my approach will always be the same. It was their faults, the police, the mental health workers in my life and all the rest. They led me to this point, they shortened my life and forever changed the course of my life. And now they have the nerve to limit my choices after putting me in that position.