Conclusions.

Like I said, I am a good person, I have never been in jail, I have never harmed anyone, I don't cause trouble in any way. I have always lived a simple, solitary life by myself, enjoying things that barely cost anything. Never wanting more than that, never once asking for more. And yet I get treated like this. Treated worst that the worst criminal, denied the most basic access to the legal system, caught up in a nightmare that will never end because I'll never know when it's over. Official legal documents can be faked, medicine and the legal system can harm innocent people and nothing is being done. This "emergency" has lasted fifteen years. And in addition to the fact that no emergency could last that long, I strongly suspect whatever this was originally about was some misconception they had about me. Thinking I did something I didn't, or maybe thinking I had some problem I obviously don't. And yet in all this time is still continues. Obviously for nothing I've done. But like in the many times in the past people have hurt me I still have to wonder what their reasons could be and why they think I do in fact deserve it. Like I said, reasons in the past for hurting me and treating me differently included that I was gay, that all mentally ill people are evil, and that I am lazy and selfish and don't contribute to society. But I told you, I am not buying any of that this time. And they will win because I won't finally get to live my life in peace. Live in peace and try to find that they took from me for years. And everyone plays along. Except my doctors who thought a couple of years ago that it had gone too far. Which is ironic because that also shows they were all right with the physical damage that was done and kept from me all those years. But they at least had the courage to admit that. But no one else will. All the free legal aid organizations I reached out to, all the people I begged and pleaded to for help, all the police and paramedics. IOW the people we think are always there to help. None of them objected. None of them objected in any way, in fact my therapist confirmed that police and paramedics also wanted to take it a step further by endangering my life and safety, and really destroying my life, by taking away my car. Even though it was none of their business and even though their time would be better spent solving the unsolved murders that they are supposed to be working on, in a city where I am one of the few law abiding people. But there is something I can do, if I never find true peace. I can spend the rest of my life exposing those people, every one of them, for that they did to me and what they took part in. And in what not one of them objected to once. Exposing them and showing to the world what they have done and what they are capable of. So this never happens again.