Livin The Chat

OK...I'm going for 3 in a row...

I didn't get to sleep until after 2am, but it had to be not long after that. Then at 5:30 I have the most rude awakening of a loud loud cat fight in the kitchen.

GOOD GRIEF

I roar up in there and mean little fat BB jumps down from where she has attacked/started up with the big, beautiful, and arrogant Princess. I made sure my precious Princess was fine, and then (because I'm me) made sure that aggravating BB was ok too.

I wasn't able to go back to sleep, and haven't even been able to catch a nap! :-O

So I may be sleep deprived high (and firecrackers too)

Posting while altered.

 

I still have your present from the last holiday my mate !

 

i have fake facebook just for playing criminal case game and occasional casino games

mafia wars was good until they closed it ...and i kind of gave up on papa pear

 

Time yourself.

Use a timer in the kitchen or on your phone and time your activities. You can include internet browsing on your break times.

(From someone who never uses this good advice.)

 

Brought a few bottles of Ouzo home ! Woman in the airport said Drink it with fresh orange juice ( I only ever drink it with water or lemonade )
Holy Shit The fresh orange seems to open up the pores in your throat and give you a all over Buzz
( do you even have pores in your throat ? )

 

Today is day 471 being completely drug and alcohol free. Only crutch is my american spirit cig.

I drink a few rockstars on my days off.

My recovery feels good since I moved and now have my own place. Granted I know its only been two weeks and that is nothing in the scheme of things. I am very aware of how the relapse process begins and when you pick up the drug that is in the final step. The relapse itself starts weeks or months before you pick up the drug.

I had some thoughts of weed and alcohol the first two nights I was here without internet. Though I knew they were just thoughts, the same ones I had when i lived at the oxford house with the guys. One day at a time. I have several reminders each day to help me, especially the sock monkey hung by my door. I look at him multiple times a day. I do not want to drink ever again, I have thought about it sure, same with weed. I just know exactly how i will feel after i use the substances, and I know that after it wears off I would be depressed because nothing happened and now my sobriety date has to be started over.

But their is one thing I have not done in 3 years. Mushrooms. I have said out loud to several people, i don't want to drink, don't want to smoke, but I just know ill eat the mushrooms again. They are just amazing. Ive abused them once in my life over 3 weeks, but that GF at the time was toxic as hell and the tried suicide in the house and everything else was just insane.

A week ago, I had what some might call the mushroom calling me. No idea where it came from, but I have been thinking about them a lot since.

I strait up want to eat them for spiritual reasons, and to try and find answers to quit smoking cigs cause its so fucking hard.

I don't want to ask anyone for them. I don't want to buy them from anyone.

I want to grow them in my apartment. It would be very easy. One grow operation could give me tons to store away.

Its really hard right now not to want to grow them. Its very easy and I know how to do it. Its just a waiting game.

This has been on my mind and wont seem to leave. I just want to take the plunge with the shroom to search my mind.

I don't believe the mushroom will influence me to go out and drink or smoke weed cause I just strait up dont want to indulge in them.

 

fuck face satan leaves trash in the basement with the door unlocked. Julie can just push it. of course she got in the trash.. Why the fuck is this monster storing trash in the basement when I have raccoon proof trash cans outside.. always something with this monster.. maybe even intentionally trying to get the dog sick because Julie hates her just as much if not more than I do.

 

forecast here is great for the next 5 days ...starting tomorrow is back to normals with sunny days

 

Aeri. that looks good. see the glands swelling. looks darn near mature to me.

 

DaFug's a normal life?

 

Normal...normal! I wouldn't know normal if it jumped up and slapped me in the face.. actually, I am normal, it's all the other bugger's!

 

Its what other people do..

Its what I always wanted growing up...and I'm being serious!

Its what I don't even expect nor anticipate ever happening. lol

 

f i r e c r a c k e r
f a c e b o o k e r




stay tuned weed growers....I been holding back the photos so as not to seem pretentious but i'm feeling good tonight....just have to resize them all first

get it?...because the buds are to big I gotta resize them

 

and that is exactly what 95% of "other people" think, the other 5% are just too fucking stupid to think....
and every kid growing up wanted something different.....but genetics and environment are constricting bitches, aren't they.

 

Livin the chat is a lame chat thread title, I feel compelled to say


I would have gone with Chat-egory Five Hurricane Irma

 

pics just ain't gonna do it this year, you gotta send out some samples...

 

i like yhat vg, but it is early in hurricane season..

 

Hurricane Wally by mid november

Wheres Wally?

.....oh FUCK! there is is .....shooowoooowoooowoooowoooosh...roof panel flying past....shooowoooowoooowoooowoooosh...cow....COW!...shooowoooowoooowoooowoooosh

 

well, I wont be going to Willie Nelson someone wanted them badly enough to spend big money.. it is a sold out event. besides its going to rain hard and even if it dont, it could've.