even though I have applied to other places, something told me I would get the job where I did months ago when my DM first made mention of trying there. I need to learn to listen to that intuition more. It has played out to be true much more often than not.... it is kinda scary the degree of crap I can be aware of...........maybe I need to not be afraid and embrace it... brings to mind stuff told to me about myself 30+ years ago by someone...damned if they weren't right. maybe I need to go back to praying in tongues, always did put me in a good third person perspective........ shit, I'm sharing too much and folks will think I'm really fucking strange now..........
think I may be getting near the next phase, always have felt like an observer in this life....... this life or may be a few more, who knows, but whenever I have moments when I feel as if everyone is going to appear as pure energy devoid of the superficial trappings... why do I fight it so much? again, maybe I'm just shizo.....
I think one can accept that as individuals we are only infinitesimally small,insignificant etc, yet still see oneself at the centre of one's own universe, and that the same applies to each tiny spark. Each person gets the experiences needed for their own personal growth if they have eyes to see and the willingness to learn and change.
It always strikes a chord in me when people say they're an observer in life. it isnt something I think about very often but when I hear other people say it, I think ah yes that is my truth too