i`m not too bothered, i`d most like to just die but since i`m actually responding to this thread, maybe communicate with someone about a lot of things get wasted on alcohol as i haven`t been able to drink it in ages and get wasted from cannabis
I want to be a judge at the Cannabis Cup in Amsterdam. I want to spend time in Germany, Australia, and Jamaca in perticular but I want to see as much of this world that I can. Skydive Travel across the states on a motorcycle Get a pilots liscence and a small amphibious plane, with enough land for a landing strip close to where I live.
Oh, and I want to have a deck on the second floor of my house (way down the road from now) that has a firemans pole going directly into the hottub below. Yea, that would be cool
build my own little "house" and live in it. someplace out in the boonies. and have someway of surviving there without ever having to come into town or deal with human society other then when i felt like it. i think that's that main thing, that doesn't, at this late stage, seem very likely to happen. and by house i don't mean anything big or fancy either. just a place i can keep out of the weather, with a bed and a desk for the computer, some kind of half bath and something to cook on and a little refrigerator of some kind. if there was a second room of some kind, other then the half bath, it would be a model railroad or a workspace or some combination of the two. probably smaller then anything any building code anywhere that has them would let me call my house and perminent residence to live in. and not HAVE to live WITH anyone, but be able to invite to come and go the kind of people i would occasionally enjoy the company of. =^^= .../\...
Dare to do that which I fear the most. Spread a lot of love and good vibes. Pay all my debts and help others do the same .
live where i could sit outside in a garden on a nice day. (i mean as part of where i lived, not someplace i would have to ride a bus half a day to get to) and where i could make everything however i wanted to make it. i mean without violating anything to do so. have all the tools and skills to make all the kinds of things i'd like to make, have them all together and set up in a place where i could use them. these are like the few things i miss never having had. i've always had this but not that, when i needed this AND that. build and own a solar powered ride on train. it would be nice to be with people who always had affection to give, but never demanded my attention. i mean for everyone to have that too. the things i'd be interested in doing i haven't already done, aren't many, but i don't like frustrating myself with how unlikely they are i ever will. if i were younger i could always say that might happen, but i'm at an age now, where there's at least three times as much behind me as there is likely to be ahead, but yah, there are a few things. actually building or seeing built the things i like to design. i've seen some things come into being that are a little like some of my ideas, and i always find that gratifying when they do.